my name is annana.

BODY GO

"buto"
"pala buto"
"sial"
k i accept all of it.
from you.
& to noe tt its actually for me makes me feel so filthy.
Like im so filthy that thats haw u describe me as.

im like so super full of wrong things.
im not ur angel already.

my hands are shaking right now.
I have to type with my face very close to the keyboard.

"You make me feel so beautiful"-me.
Now I feel like an ugly duckling.
Im a piece of dirt for u to wrap & throw away.
You like to pick on my flaws & whenever
I hear each & every one of it from u ,it makes
me feel uglier.
an uglier ugly duckling.
Is it that obvious ?is it written on my face?

I thought ure my hero.
Its so helpless.
its not right.

It hurts.
Make me feel like ur baby again.
make me feel like ur little princess again.
treat me so dearly & make me feel save again.

Haw it feels when i ve to wait for u everyday
till the wee hours for u to come back & then
left with a few mins till u get sleepy.
& then i get mad cus I just want ur attention
after a whole day without u.
& u scold me for getting mad.
Its not fair.

You leave me twice when im not ok.
I didnt hear your soft words when I cried
on the phone.
Where else could I go to?
& ur mum came in e picture ,its embarrrasing.
You want ur mum to see me like haw u see me.
u re revealing all my flaws to her.
It hurts so much.
U dont know.

I wana fly away.
fly away & just admire u from far.
take away all the burden from u.
which is me.
..
..
..
..
Its killing me~
killing me softly.

I love you so much.
after what we ve done for us.
After what u ve done for me.
buying me my favourite mcspicy meal at 1am & send it to
me at the stairs just cus ur baby was hungry .that was our shortest
meeting time -5 secs :)
surprising me n waiting for me to come back
from work under my block just so u could see me & hug me.

I dont wana lose the love i ve found.
Its not fair ,what u want ,what I cant.

sorry i wrote it here.
its just too much things goin on.

Labels: where s my babylove

:(
Ima sad turtle today.
& I dont wish to go online @ msn right now.

I just threw up mins ago.
I think cus I ve got alot of things in mind.
On top of tt,
im having tt monthly girl thg:(
plus the cramp.
&
i didnt eat any meals yest.

so lil tummy hates me wen I
suddenly fill it up with
rice &chicken.

I feel like going to the neareast Starbucks
& get a free drink.
I took a whole lot of free drink cards
when I have to do sampling for the
summerdrink last time.

I feel like calling min
& giving him the drink.
We ll see how.
cus sunday will be the last day.

Spongebob @ 3 later on.
sponggie ,make me smile oke.
so I could make tt phonecall.

Labels: boohoo rifhan cn u hug me

pork .I want to be a pig
& be cook tenderly.
so Im a pork marinated in
lemon & black soy sos.
wateve.
Pork,

Labels: 4th

Hi my name is Jinx & this is my 3rd post
of the day. Im tryna play ard with my hair &
im typing right infront of my mirrortable.
Today my hair is not being an asstiit so it looks
cool &big. I am born with a big hair especially
when I have a short hair. Few days back, I
plan to cut my hair like damn short again
but with one condition ,a long fringe. But
then i crossed out that plan cus my hair is still
not as long as repunzle (exaggerated).

Hi my name is Jinx & Im feeling preety fcuked up
& empty now. I dont have a short fringe anymore.
I changed my hair parting so my frindge s all covered
up. I hate to be having to alter my eyebrow every
now & then. It wont stop growing. Im not sorry to
you guys if im crapping alot now, this is myspace.

Hi my name is Jinx. I have a middle name which
sounds somethin like Ramona. I wonder how it feels like
to have a brazilian wax. & i wonder how it feels like
to have a split personality.

Hi my name is Jinx. Im listening to dangdut &
it reminds me of my friend, nana s bestfriend.
I dont know much abt them thou.

byebye im going to go out & make
a pair of wings for myself.

Labels: 3rd

i am so hungry there s no food at home:(

not even peanutbutter like at min s house.
& i didnt eat any proper food since morning.

I will transform into a rhino & kill that flying beetle

& hide away from you under the mud.

Labels: my tummy s upset with me cus i didnt fill it

i feel like a..
like a loser.
like a loser to you.

like i ve no right.
no right to justify things
when i wanted to//

Labels: where s mr sunshinee

fcuken adorable right this little rasc !& can u see me bhind her ?she want to take solo pikca actually .nk terajang ikahh ole ?atu buang pat tong sampah.

& this is me when i came home not feeling happy.

no farrna i am not addicted .Ha ha h~noriz want to physco me ah ah Ah ?ha ha/satu lagu je yg cinta tuhh .he heh eh ~~siku kn korg :):)aku ade undergrd tempat leh karaoke karaoke lagu malay halal .serious shyt it writes like "english chinese malay(halal) songs" /hahah si chiah tau .

i wen to work late just now & im like stupitttt .It was raining cacing & i waited for cab @ the busstop .Then one cab coming ,I flag the cab but then the bus come & block e cab .Stupit sia ~Im like confuse uh .Haw to take cab eh like tt .I dont even think the driver saw me =,= but atlast with no interuption frm buses i got this malay cabbie which i want to smash his face with tennis balls .I want to giveu money also dont want .Ugama ckp rezeki dont tolak .I pay my nets then he ask "cash takde ?" .no la toot .then he give this sound u make when ur irritated like "chsp" .ha ha ~oke tt was funney "chsp "haw the hell does tt sound like ?AH HAH.

i guess im bored .heh ehe ~& then my love fish & bubu amirin came visit me .WhuWuhWhuaha .I like ~~~~NyeYenynE.

You see ,when u work at places like Starbucks ,sometimes customers like our like-long-time-already-know-u services & especially for girls .They may come just to get a drink from a particular person .can leave their number or just healthy little flirt talks .u see we try to satisfy them as much & make them feel welcome so they ll come again & be a regular & we ll noe their name & fav drink :)nice ryte min:):):) I got some customers like that ah ,but i dont mind ,my manager also say its normal for guy(customer)to be abit gatal & exchange numbers .ha ha `~but keep it healthy yo .Siak panjang sia aku crite ,belum msuk crite betul.

So there s this caucasian mix arab guy with boobs & he s rich la .He wear the FcukConnection tee tts why .(we must great a customer within 3 sec when he/she enters)so I Say a cheery 'Hello!"

he came to my posh & say "i like ur hello can u say it again for me pls"

&then i say la "Hello!" again .(k i usually say this high pitch 'Hi' ,not 'Hello") .Then

I laugh la .ha ha ~order order ..He gatal la say abt the muffins blablabla.

Then he sat @ e table right infront of e posh area .So .he suddenly came to me .

Want to buy 6 mugs ah .But i think its just a reason uh to talk to me .Then blablabla.

aku layankn die cus no customer kn .blabla he said "hey letme ask u one more ques"

...

Then got customers !h ah a .So i havta go la .I wonder what s the qns eh .I think

the qns shud be interestin.

after the customer ,I step do work ah so no need to go back to him .then he like look2 at me ,I was like "jgn sia dekni physcotic boob man"

He left his contact number to my manager

& u noe what he write ? his name "donowhat man aka SUPER MAN .then

scribble words on the paper & his no .He left

& my manager was like "wth sia he write".

these kinda things scares me ah .Sumore nver shave the white facial hair then got boob!

can see the nipple shape uh !~

Like last time there s this latin guy ,came to me then give me his card say he needs 2 girls (referin to me & fish) ard my age to be an agency idonowat .Scary sia!

Its a 100% scam .ha ha.

so thats my really very long unnessasary story.

Read ah !I type so long already =,=

Baby baby baby baby !I rindu u ah:(embek .u tennga sleeping .nk tido sebla u ole ?I tak touch u .I nk feel u near me aje bcus i miss u sehh u !

eh !mcm "Seiyu" .sehh u .Seiyu .ha ha .no ,skrg is BHG .ha ha~yg tau ketawe la .BHG mcm Bahagia sia .k u!

I merepek mcm kerepek udang ah.

bye ar .eeee rindu kau dottcom.

my latest darling !~my very first Koi fish ,painted using acrylic paint on cartridge paper taken using webcam .ha ah.

somehaw it looks edited eh ?tak uh.

*cartridge paper is like drawing paper\

my faforit face of his.

can u see how bored i am until i play ard streching my pictures.

its night time & im chewing on my 2 pieces of roti prata .Its supposted to be my breakfast ah actually .i think i ll have a stomach ache later on .& its FATS day for me today .i ve endulged myself with a huge chocolate bar mummy bought for me & little bruther .another chocolate boost bar amirin bought for me & little bruthers .mini currypuffs mami make .& air batu .Anyway yest yest ,i made garlic bread & my vanilla milkshake .I LIKE .ha ha~so im gettin fat .huhuu~ so what ?I can still

exercise & make myself fit .I went to Sentosa last sat & I had fun :)& yest was just another day at amirins` .We were supposted to go karaoke but dont ask me why .Payday is in a weeks` time & Im so gona shop .I ve got some things in mind like that green top:)&shoe .yeah !~so what shud I do now ?I dont know la ,Kay i hav loads of pikcas below ,all the events that s happen .They say let the pictures do the talking .such lame shyts but ohwell !~k tmr work=,= oke my tangan so gatal i go upload pictures again .the top pikcas there~ ha ha .byebye I want to denga techno & then i want to shuffle at bathtub .ha!