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2009-01-15T08:43:00.000-08:00

(1stdayofsch)

Ever since my last post ,I knew I wanted to end this blog.

there seems to be alot of sad/bad/confused/angry moments.

bye 17917 viewers.

find me in my new page.

bye.

290491 is actually my birthday.

2009-01-11T09:15:00.000-08:00

he didn't even say he miss me.
he didn't even say 'ana'.

I give up...

im not trying anymore..

because all these empty spaces..
it actually belongs to u

2009-01-11T07:11:00.000-08:00

Tmr will be the start of something new .First day of school .No more starbucks :(I will miss my partners very muchh .I hope this time round ,i won't screw myself up .Hope tt i'll be more displine & hardworking & no more system-overloaded .Less play ,less lepaking @ lounge ,less being late (not sure) .Hello artfriend ,I will be meeting u everyday from tmr onwards.

I treat my family to Kenny Rogers @ JB today .I was satisfied & happy because its not alway that we are all together .I think dad was happy too bcus all 6 were there :))It cost me RM180plus but it was all worth it =D !I wanted to buy this Fred Perry shoe so badly !But they
don't have size for it .haiyaaaa ~So ,I got a new bag .yahu !feels like primary school.

The day before was Jam&Hop @ TP .It was ,krit krit ,hot & the DJ from zouk was not impressive enough .haiyo =,= I was with mai & farna & ubi ppl & some friends ,moving to the
beat .Then this guy was actually coming through us .through .I was smiling& he thght I smiled @ him .Cheeky ,he stopped at our spot & wanted to get me to dance w him .I was like ,uhh*patrick* .& then there's another guy ,nt even close to gdlooking ,we were all having fun ,there was this photographer taking pictures beside us & this guy was like wanted to take a picture w me .So we did take one shot .thenafter he asked me my name & I said im nora & he asked me smthg which I couldn't hear & then step tak tau then flyaway .perangai beberdish.

& on friday I went to town withh zuhri & he surprised me with his friend ,hakim .I kept quite after tt ,all the wayyy ,until we had dinner @ Mac .I was not tt tensed anymore ,ha ha ~& I saw someone tt I wanted to kill .Impbopipi ,imran =,= Cheebai .He have the cheek to call amirin & say tt he saw me & tt I was looking all snobbish & then tell him tt he don't really like me .I was like giving him tis look .Ahah !u used to have a crush on me babi .& u're a gayboyyy .mati tanak ,bubal werld kambing.

After tt ,hakim went back to send his sister to e airport & I went on a movie date with zuhri .Initially ,we wanted to watch bedtime story but e next show was @ 12am & it was only 10pm .So went over to lido but there was no bedtime story =,- I saw twilight .So we settled in for tt ,@ 12midnight too .Shud have taken the bedtime story !BECAUSE twilight is a very slow story to be watchin` in cinema .like seriously .& i think tt the boy & girl ;not handsome & preety seh .like they look like any other ordinary white ppl .I thght the movie ended @ 3am but i was back by 3.15am .We took the nightrider ,& there was this man !sitting beside me !He fell asleep !& he was like keep bumping into me ,& zuhri was like giggling & giggling & he pushed me closer to tt sleeping man !Havoc sia he sleep ~haiyo matyoyo.. .Thanks eh!

HAPPY BIRTHHHDAY MINN !ha ha h ah a ~u're an ass at jam&hop .Shouting & screaming
like a crazy woman .I hope u have fun .BAEK AR ,da 18 .h ah a hah a ha ha hah ah a hah~~~//

Tmr is school .Im too cool for school .I like my school.

an unspeakable secret.

an irreversible regret.

an unreachable dream.

an unforgettable love.

2009-01-08T09:46:00.001-08:00

U know who I wanna date right now & all the way.
Rain .no not the rain weather .its his sexy name .RAIN!
Yeahh he is the man & a sexy dancer.
he have this manly badboy thing when he dance.
turns me on :))check out his videoclip ;rainism.
HOT FCUK .tts what I call real man w great moves.
not like V--------.oh my god dhouby gaut ~U're officially
declared the man of my dream!

His dressing ,hair & skintone in that videoclip reminds me of the boy who
held his left hand out to ask me to dance during my prom.
He was wearing white gloves too ~I remembered tt .&
had a stick .coolest dressed guy in the whole room .If he was the man of my dream or my
huge crush it would have felt like Cinderalla & prince charming .with the whole
black & white formal theme & the situation was like I was sitting like a wellmannered girl w
all my gorgeous girls on one table .The moment I knew he was coming ,I got so nervous bcus he ummm ,scares me(personality stuffs) .He was like bending a little & held his left hand out
like prince charming & saying ' dance w me ?' .I totally freaked out ,I looked at my girls .I wanted to say im find w my girls but he insisted =,=The closeness between my body & his ,ughh I would have kissed him if its princecharming .& I freaked out all the way until
my girls rescued me ,away from him .HA HA HA.

but seriously. He is a really cool guy .A very cool geek.
Not that he is not goodlooking ,he is just abit weird ..very very weird & he have this philosophical way of thinking & describing art .ha ha ha .he will explain to me a whole bunch of stuff & it'll
either took me 10mins to reply him sensiblestuff or 'yeahhh .uhha ha'/ 'ok ,yeah i get u'.
Got a unique sense of style ,all good but he just doesn't make sense to me half the time.
cannot make it sia .a ha hahaha~so now im talking abt this guy name siddiq.

2009-01-06T08:50:00.000-08:00

I can imagine if Ziella's high on drugs .HAH A~

Yay my pay my pay my pay !It should be in by now .yahu .aiseyy.I've been cranky for the past 2 days .Avril's biggest fan didn't get enough sleep .ha ha h ah aha ha ha .its ok ,When sch start ,i'll rest for the first week & then take off from there .Chey .Im freaking bored .Now u can say imma no lifer .Getting used to being by myself ,takes time especially when i've just lost my baby .When im w baby ,I don't need papers & pen & camera .Now that she left me

for some stupid bangla ,I've become a lonely junkie .w a bad memory who carries a piece of paper w written numbers on it & a pen .So traggic .I need alot of 10cent coins now .Anyway Im so excited for tmr because Im gonna own a new pair of conversehighcut .Back to the old times .I threw my favourite shoe last yr because I think it deserve to be resting in peace .SO worn out ,but still so sexy .Thing is ,when I get my new

sneakers ,I'll ummm ,feel so kental .because I don't like to wear clean shoes .I told u I was a tomboy.

Some of the habits still stick with me .

I find this post very meaningless ,well ,I am angry with blogskin cus after weeks of searching ,I still cant find a perfect template .Yes I knw I've been doing my own template but just for a change .Furthermore ,Im not used to editting using my lappy ,which clearly explains the plain pictures ,since I own this baby of mine ,I've downgraded my editting skills .ha ha ~Wth am I bragging abt ?just nw was shoes & now abt editting -,=

2009-01-02T11:48:00.000-08:00

1st & 2nd day of new yr = sucks.

I didn't get a new yr's kiss.

I didn't get a venti caramel macchiato.

I didn't even paused to countdown.

I was steaming milk & making good coffees.

for coffee freaks!

The number of customers were triple OMG.

well ,lets put it this way ,we made almost $5000.

excluding creditcards & nets.

Get well soon ,Fie :))

& we'll go riding dirty again.

ha ha~I give u apple & orange ok.

Dad bought a new calendar to hang on the wall.

I saw number 1 .uhhuh~

Hey ,thanks Ziella :))I think i didn't make sense

half of the time ,but thanks ,for listening.

love u.

Zuhrie babe.

Its ok ,we'll hang out soon & talk.

about anything & everything :))

I was in ur shoes.

hey it takes time .we're cool ppl kan.

love ,na.

I put a $10 deposit on a cool

hoody .hehe~

cheeky me.

min's birthday is coming to town

EXCITED FOR TUESDAY NIGHT.
payday ;p

2009-01-01T08:34:00.000-08:00

Im pissed.

& EVERYTHING's better left unsaid.

2008-12-30T08:46:00.000-08:00

All taken few minutes ago .ha ha ~Min wanted to show his
cleavage .Badly /very badly .ha ha.
listening to misteri jam 12 ,kikikii.
& im 100% sure ju's listening to it too~
im wasting my time.
I think i'll go at 2.
im at min's house & he got sch @ 9 tmr.
me ;drunken .by 2 cups of teh peng.
smoke break time!
& im alone.
hee~
k i love u guys.
muahs

2008-12-28T10:46:00.000-08:00

U know I have this habit of doing my bad habit till the wee hours

eventhough im having work in the morning :(

Like right now .I have this bad habit of getting what I want

immediately & seriously ,u won't wanna know how frustating it can be.

Omg .I feel like killing the internet .Stupidd worldwide thing!

Can't even do such simple task!

Ohh another thing added to bithday list .A whiteblack Everlast

punching bag :))I've got them punching gloves already.

hehee.

cheeky right.

Anyway ,U re plain ugly minarepp & u don't even realise ur one!

ha ha ha ha ~dammit .I hate reading your shoutouts .Pathetic

fcuk .& the fact tt u have strings of ex bf really makes me wonder.

ha ha ha ~I guess love is blind & them guys ,they're just stupid.

I cannot accept sia u wear ripcurl stuffs .I thought u belong to bugis

street .goodbye ,im ganna stop talking abt u nw.

& I know u're an avid reader of my blog.

Tomyam cup nooooooodle accompaning my stress moment.

after that off to bed na !You're working at 7 tmr & its already

3.02am.

Hello sch ,I still have not touch on my 100 sketches due first

day of sch .No .Im not gonna .Holiday is holiday .Sch is sch.

Both don't mix well .So im gonna enjoy my holiday .Sleeptight sch.

I squeezed one blackhead on my nose .Result :A red spot.

I think I squeezed it too hardcore .& suddenly the pimples wana

pop out .5 dots on the foreehead & a red spot on the nose =,=

Thanks dr.secret .ur the best facial medicine ever!

ah hah !spot check!

2 pimples gone.

3 to go ,I told u dr.secret's the

best!

my maggie ,cannot pinish.

bro ,its ur lucky day.

half-a-cup of maggie for u!

=,= 5.2 mins for roh.

i miss my hp:(((((((((((((veryvery much.

2008-12-25T09:52:00.000-08:00

I figured I should get the $4 eyeliner tt fish left at my house.

Good investment.

Friendster seriously have a problem w me .I cant seem to

delete it off .dammit

Soccer ,I mean ,the match was suckish.

but great time w fie & friends .should do it over & over again.

I like how dangerous fie's riding can get & how carefree

his friends are.

I cut my hair ,just the front (side) part .It was like a bunch of

dead hair .Thanks amirin.

I need a new life man .I reallyreally times 10 want to

migrate .Anywhere but not asia.

I don't like lonely nights.

It kills me.

Hey guys ,listen to this.

I miss ELMO .he miss his bike.

elmo was once a big hit amg min akim & zuhri.

started @ ubi's kedai kopi.

& zuhri still tease me abt 18 & first girl & car.

& yana & yas were the only two who've met elmo.

Im singin .w my earpiece in my ears.

I wonder how horrible I sound.

Had dinner w big family .Grandpa's treat .Fun~

Uncle took me for a ride w his bike.

we went somewhere scary & make everyone wait.

Pit G was far .I loooove Feroz's car .dammit sexy.

It was fun but the rain took everything away :((

Shark was my favourite drink tt night ;like redbull but better.

I was in bed by 11 the next morning =,=

I told u the rain took everythg away.

krit ...krit..

I swear I can mati.

new year new year new year.

What should I do?

Stay home w a venti caramel macchiato?

Chillax by the reservoir w a venti caramel macchiato?

I don't want crowds.

I want a venti caramel macchiato for new yr.

& a new year kiss?

from who sia na.

I need a converse highcut & a slip-on.

I need jeans jeans pants wateve.

I need T.I .but I miss Nelly :))

I need mascara & I need a 4 pack.

Conv bet fish & me @ work.

Location :Floor

me :Eyh pis ,handsome handsome *hiding behind bar & pointing*

fish :mane? *behind POS*

me :tuuuuuu .handsome *pointin @ pastry case & still hiding*

fish :hmmm ,*check him out* bole ahhh .ha ha *giggle tgether*

me :cpat suru die bukak baju kasi aku cair skejap.

fish :*laughhh*

me :*laughhh la ofcourse*

k tt was krit krit .He was a chinese hunk w a tan & sharp features & hot bod .like terr tts why

I said hunk .We were plain bored so I was like checking out on the customers.

I would have text my friends to hang

out if I still have my hp.

Anyone present me w my samsung hp

for new yr ?Thank you very much.

or maybe a baby G watch.

Its cold everydayyyyyyy.

So its a good time for all my sweaters pullover

hoodies & blablablablabla.

I have a whole collection of them :))

One of em is in fish's washing machine.

KIWAK BORINGGGGGGGGGGGG RING RING RING A BELL.

Hmmmm .K my birthday for next yr.

I wonder what's my birthday wishlist eh.

-I wanna bicycle!!

-I wanna samsung hp:((((((((((

-I wanna lotsa lotsa balloons!

-I want all my friends to be w me on tt day!

-I wanna little tiara on my head :))

-I wanna lotsa lotsa boxers.

-I wanna soccerball.

-I wanna acoustic guitar w lotsa lotsa guitar picks

-I wanna sexyfcuk heels.

-I want T.I & Nelly & Bow wow.

-& I want birthday cards from friends.

-I HOPE MAMA & ABA WILL REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY.

Dammit .K ah I give up ah the boringness.

I will go to bed.

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...................

& this is elmo :)) k goodnight.

That spain sticker reminds me of Khus's gilera =,= =,= =,= =,= =,=paitao king.

My name is annana & im 17 & bored w life.

2008-12-18T08:04:00.000-08:00

As crazy as I can be ,Im in the toilet now .Half-naked .Playing the comp.

well ,the main reason is because I wanted to hear music while bathing.

My 5 megapixel hp left me already kan :((

So I dragggggggg my lappy into the toilet.

I on my musicplayer & then I saw internet connection ;p

Now ,Im shivering like shytt !The water ..so cold!

ooh ,another thing abt me ,I don't use warm water to bath

nomatter how cold the weather is.

I don't like the heaty feeling of warm water .haha//

& today Im wasting water .Sorry S R Nathan.

hello T.I .heee ,T.I makes me nervous.

I get goosebumps whenever I listen to whatever u like.

hehe :))& I can dance like

T.I & Enrique :))Ask fish & yas .HAHA.

k next ,its all abt me :))I told u I went crazy on Monday.

Because it was my only offday where I could wear anythg

but my work clothes .So I got all excited!

this was the last picture .me & my cheesedonut:))

sexy or what my leg blac colour!

amirin wanted to treat me to EastCoast!

Im so cool .AHhaH.yeah money not enough.

to buy me a new mascara :((

k im very hyped right now.

Its the venti caramel macchiato's fault.

Now Im feeling feeling Danity Kane .Ohh yeh oh yehh

Now im feeling feeling america's next top model.

chey rohana binte abdul rashid!

hah ah a~

anyway ,I got a letter tt $36 will be deducted from my CPF.

me :aba ni buat ape ni letter?

aba :Nnt die deduct $36 from CPF kau.

me :oh =,=

aba :CPF kau ade $36 tak ?

me :Oh !da ade more than $100 !ha ha .Da veteran!

aba :*krit to rohana*

funny sia.

k I want to go to mycpf.com .Check my cpf.

HA HA.

hi my name is annana & Im 17 w an insurance of $46 ,000.

p.s "my CPF account is looking gooooodd.

x p.s I've got arm muscles !YEAHHUU!

2008-12-15T23:16:00.000-08:00

Black versus brown hair. (actually my hair is like maroon in colour .haha)

Ahhhh yesss ~I don't care how I loook ok..

As u can see ,still not sober enuf to smile.

In the streets of uptown ,oh ho hoo ~w my ezlinko.

Best shoot!

The flashh ,its killing my eyes...

Nasty flashh.

Yes .Happened this monday.

hello world ,how are u today.

For the only 2 off days I have this week,

monday & tuesday,

I thought of just hanging out ,chilling.

Monday was great ,I let lose.

Tuesday was ,ayy-oke.

Was happy to meet zuhrie & andy.

zuhrie just make everyone smile.

But I made my move ,it felt awkward.

it just doesn't seem right.

furthermore ,fish wasn't using her brain

tt night .I was angry la .then blablabla .Thenafter , she had fish&chip & tehpeng & ubi sia .This was no ordinary stuff .Fish & ubi don't mix .ha ha ha ~fish & bedok click like shyt.

Anyway Im getting myself a new number .Bill ok & its not funny if u guys out there tease me abt my lost hp :(I miss it very very much .You know ,these few days ,I kept having dreams when I go to bed .Why?

Someone asked me out on a date .funny .I don't know how to date .My hands will be the victim .It'll nver stop moving .I hate boys .Oh ,yesterday ,I dreamt tt I met a long lost lover & I was 24 going 25 & I was living in Punggol ,not w parents .I left east side bcus I don't want all the drama & no one knows I moved to Punggol .Funny when all Im trying to do now is to leave everythg behind .Butttt ,yeah ,if there's anywhere I wanna move ,Punggol's good .Its far from evrythg .Migrate .That'll be better .& my name will be?

Singapore is getting small .Everyone knows everyone .Its not fun to meet new friends anymore .They are all the same .Same old boring thing .Same faces .Same attitude .Same hugs & kisses .Minahs are tryna be cool cool chill =,= Young boys are turning into gays when in the first place they don't even understand life .Damnfcuk !& I don't understand why ppl comment 'oh u cute! u sexy u hotstuff' to ppl who are plain fugly =,=They blind or aliens ?& lastly ,there's fanatics =,= =,= =,=K maybe ,Ms Red is coming to town.

OH BIGG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY COOLDEST KIDS YASIRAH YASIN BTE MASIN .HA HA HA .YOU JUST TURNED 17 & YOUR BOYFRIEND IS TURNING 18 & THING IS BOTH OF U WERE BORN IN 1991 =,=HA HA HA .HAVE FCUKING FUN TODAY .THANKS EH U'RE LOVESWEPT & U DITCH GUNDUS FOR FARISSHAFIQ ON UR BIRTHDAY .SO NO SURPRISES FOR U THIS YR .I HATE U~MUACKS Y:)) ~~~~17 YR ON 17TH.

next birthday wish goes to my favourite neighbour ~AFIQa :))Tahniah on Bartest .Macflurrry?

I deleeted my friendster last week?

But it came back =,= I suddenly

found my profile.

Again.

2008-12-11T07:52:00.000-08:00

sleepover was kickass.

we shared & became like jackass.

we have this storytellin` time.

It ll start w a sentence like..

I like ...

I hate ...

I love ...

I miss ..

Each of us confess as many thgs as we want to

example :I miss ..secondary sch.

as personal & as unexpected as it can get.

I almost teared ;this one part.

& My boyfriend was T.I

becus I can do his dancemove!

I hate the drillings from the fcuk banglas above.

From 4Dec onwards ,I declared tt I fcuk

hate banglas .Anti-bangla.

Im almost broke now.

& its only like 6 days after payday :(

I got little.

This time its different ,feel like I was

just the victim & u cut me like a knife when

u walked out of my life.

Now Im in this condition & I got all the symptoms

of the girl with the broken heart

but nomatter what

u'll nver see me cry.

I've nver felt this worse ever.

& I don't even know why.

These feelings.

Seems so familiar..

like ,one & a half yrs ago.

When everythg seems like a

big blur & I was struggling

to pick myself up.

& leaving everythg behind.

Just when I thght its all

over,it

came bck.

I make mistakes.

Mistakes after mistakes.

& now ,Im falling apart again.

Thank u work ,for keeping me

company everyday.

it sucks it sucks it sucks.

On top of all those ,I

am still sad as fcuk tt I lost

my cellphone.

Hi my name is annana & im at my weakest point.

so ,welcome to my life.

p s ;I hope u're having so much fun playing w my heart.

2008-12-11T01:25:00.000-08:00

some sleepover coolshyts.
ha ha ha ~pictures will be rated ..ummm ..nc16?
not for serious people /no lifer wateve shyts.
Its just wacky & a hellava good time babeh.

We have T.I ,pharrell & bow wow as our boyfriends
that night.
:):):):):)5 smiley faces.

2008-12-07T09:14:00.000-08:00

goodbye 5 megapixel phone :((
Im so sad ~I lost all my contacts.
& my touch screen .& my 5 megapix cam :((
:(:(:(:(:( 5 sad faces.

"Someone who is stopping me from living my life."
"I want him to be w me but Im not gonna die w/o him ,I just like the
way he makes me feel"
"Its ok to ditch a date w ur bf to spend a day w ur bestbuddies."
"You're driving me away from u."

fishy ,those phrases sound super familiar kn.

sometimes u really drive me crazy .Trapping me inside.
Nonstop miss calls & msges.
Too caring =Overprotective =sensitive .There's no more thrills
or obstacles for me to overcome by myself .There must alway be u.
You must alway be the hero .Im too trapped .Im left w words but u will
never understand even in a million yrs.
I feel like crying .because it really sucks ,whn it hav to repeat
evry single day.
& then there's the y? y? y? y? y? y? y? tthing.
Why ?What ?Where ?When ?Why?
killing me sofffffftly...

& I say it again,
when does it get so hard to smile each morning.

Sad sia ,no hp :((
Lonely showers ;lonely nights ;lonely getting ready time.
arrrr ;stress .why must it be my favourite hp :((
baru nk upgrade.

U make me feel like dying is better.

Moral of the Story :Boys /Geeks /Jerks /Men /Guys can never promise.

2008-11-30T08:30:00.000-08:00

For all that I care ,for all thats happening

I have this fcukingg Love of mine & who makes evrythg goes awayy.

My loveeee ;MASS kritt krit.

we the shyt.

where's riffy & rainee & aqyls & nadd~

Ayu's right.

Good things will come to an end.

Things just happen...

Done by fishhy :))Its made of 100% whipcream.

Hey friend ,thanks for alway being there :D

This was yest.

Let's talk a lil` bit bout yest.

It was ay-ok for me .Filled but the

crowd weren't that happening.

I was really disturbed by the black thingy =,=

All the loud music makes me hungry so

I left Ziella w two thailand ppl *ha ha*.

mass & me bought snacks & we sat &

became umm ..like

two T.I wannabe left & right women =,=

HA HA HA .we were niggas tt night.

The night went away ,& it just wasn't tt fun.

.Im just happy tt I met mass bcus its been

so fcukinggfcuk long & there's Ziella :))

Busride home alone ;& I was like literally thinking all

the way.

I bumped into Adil at Ubi's busstop & I told him to

wait till I got on bus 60.

I needed to eat so Amirin's mum fed me

w chicken & rice.

& THE REASON I AM HAVINGA BAD HEADACHE

& FLU ;becus I came back at 2.30

all tired & sleepy

& then wake up at 6.

for workk :((

Finished at 4pluss & walk & eat

w Fish @ parkway &

back at 9 & then later on

I'll be having work at 10.

Its different when u work.

I cant just skipp shifts like I skipped classes.

work takes up a lot more energy than sch.

A lot more.

& thinking eats up the remaining energy

left in me.

Fish & I ,we talked abt somthg over blackpepper

beef w rice & Red ruby.

but I don't really wana talk abt it here.

ha ha~

In life ,u have to learn how to smile

& cover up everything.

Hey ,Im stronger than

this :))

2008-11-28T23:01:00.000-08:00

run away run away run away.

run away runaway runaway......

Shuuuuuuuuuut 'me' from everything else.

2008-11-27T22:20:00.000-08:00

Good morning folks .Im bored .Running out of pictures.

So I edit some photos frm the photoshoot .JU !I want the studio punye

gamba gambaran bole :(boohoo :((

Pink & Yellow slippers match well.

Indoor -Aircon makes u smile.

Outdoor ;Hot hot sun makes u just ...stare =,=

Our very talented photographer ;Mr .Juju /Jack!

So today I conclude that ;the one bad thing abt those

cameras .They only have 2 sec timing .So u see why jack was

trying so hard to fit in & muke maintain .HAHA.

Yest while walking to work ,I bumped into an attachment partner

name Haziq .He reminds me of Ayu's boyfriend ;Haziq.

I alway exaggerate the 'q' when pronouncing this 'Haziq' name.

k tak perlu bilang.

Today work starts at 6.

forever it will be like that.

No Lifer ?Ha ha ,u'll see ,when its pay-day.

Who's the no lifer now ;p

don't come find me by then.

WHuaWUhaAWUUHA!!!!

2008-11-27T10:27:00.000-08:00

I feel like talking to someone on the phone now~

2008-11-26T01:53:00.000-08:00

I bought my fav facialwash & fav bodywash :))

I want oreocheesecake so badly :(I think Im having a new phone.

ha ha ha ~So what //Im fullfilling all my wants right now.

I don't care .At least I work my ass off for it.

I need a new mascara :(but I don't like all the ones I see.

Ha ha ,I just think tt I look ugly w eyeliner on my top eyelid.

K im ganna check on cellphones now ;p

Hi my name is annana & im a piggy today.

2008-11-23T10:28:00.000-08:00

what's with them & curly hair now ?dammit~

I think Im changing my hair colour ,AGAIN ;p

KATE PERRY !u're so much cooler looking w straight hair & natural lashes.

I just got back from work & its kinda sad tt (uknowiknowmin)
like im not used to be like what I am now & i know tt i'll get used to
it but it kinda sucks becus like I feel abit lost & like I have no direction
like Im just ganna work & earn & then umm i'll think abt the '& then' part.
On top of tt I still have some things in mind .Now ,what I really wana
do is to get my pay ,have fun w loved ones & make myself fat again.
fat .fat .fat.~

hmmmm ,I would looove to go to the Sentosa this time round during the
wet season .It'll be fun :))

2008-11-22T03:17:00.000-08:00

Ayu & me .Lesbians~ *PAAUSE* .no ,we are girls .We are

fine girls .ha ha~

I went to the toilet ,& I saw this cicak crawling without his tail.

cute right .he he //

When I was p6 ,I was very small .I helped my big friend to chase

a cicak in the classrm ,becus she was afraid of it.

I went under the table & grabbed it w my 2 fingers.

When I was looking at it very closely ,the cicak let go of

its tail & there's blood ~ha ha.

The cicak have patterns on its skin & have cute pair of black eyes.

I released the cicak outside my classrm & the tail

was still wriggling.

So ,I became her hero :))

Im not afraid of cicak .They're like the mini

version of kodomo dragon.

KODOMO dragon?!?!

komodo dragon la na~ =,=

Im just afraid of beetles & cocroaches & daddylongleg spiders

& spiders & big ants & red ants & moths

ALL THE EEKY INSECTS IN THE WORLD!

You knw there's this belief that when we die we turn

into an animal /Chinese sortaf thingy.

I've alway wanted to be a tiger or a black panther.

I love this mighty beaaautiful creatures :))

& if if if IF if we die we turn into another being..

guess who I wanna be ..hehe~

SOALAN BONUS SIA NA!

They call me annana.

Dear amirin,

u've been the greatest boy ever.

God's greatest creation.

Forever the greatest gift God's given me.

Thanks min.

min thanks.

That's all for now .Im kinda like in between sad & glad & blank.

2008-11-19T08:04:00.000-08:00

These two pictures were from the photoshoot .Outdoor & indoor.
Im drinking chocolate w oats drink .I like the second picture.
Because senyuman manis .ha ha ha //harun is like playing malay
love songs on his lappy . =,=I only like ungu ;p

Im getting better w myself.
my eating habits.
Yesterday's yest itself ,I ate 5 meals each consist of a chicken & rice
xcept for 1 meal .daging & rice/
& then yest I ate all my favourite food.
daging & rice agn .& chicken & rice.
but i tell u ..bad eating habits are on the waayy..
oh my ...pls forgive my tummy:(

I wonder whats mum;s cooking today :))

Anyway ,I miss my buddy Fie :(
I remembered being close to him which make amirin
jealous & mad which I find it ridiculous because we
are bestbuddies !ha ha ha .we just happen to click
very well & he is a good friend who goes out w diff girls
everyday .ha ha ha~

K i need to wee wee.
& she ,my 'bestest best' friend (uknowwho) turns me off.
like when I look at her pictures ,its like horror +horrible +horrified + horrendeous + hor.
She changed from an innocent sweet girl to a really disturbing disturbia creature.

evil annananaaa .but yeah its true.
oh WELL .I hope she finds her way back.

SEE HOW BORED I AM .4 POSTS IN LESS THAN 24HRS.
k I promise this kindda thing won't be a like a regular routine.
quitss`sss`s.

so I met iralalala & fishy.
It was fun .I miss them ~although we didn't do much
Just gave fishy's hair a cut & ehem.
I love u guys.

I called mai but u didn't pick up.

when u look me in the eye ,& tell me that u love me~

Seriously ,Im gonna kiss anyone.
5 times~
who brings me Mega McSpicy.
so crispy ...hot ...juicy ...tender ..ahhh...
k make it 10 kisses!DEAL.
anyone ...?
u have until sunday.

2008-11-19T06:11:00.000-08:00

Im posting about the cutest little brat ever!
ha h ha ha ha.
she's evil yet very darn adorable!
yes ,my 3rd post .So what ?!I told u its a boring day.

SWAT + pampers =ADORABLE.

my atok_aba wants to buy car!

late night supper for Ika!

i love my mummy :))

No !my face only.

Ika play game !nenot share!

Little rockstar under the block~

ika muner birthday !atok_aba ajak mkan swensen!

2008-11-19T03:43:00.000-08:00

Dear amirin,

Im sorry to hear that you're friendship with ur closest buddies are all fading away. You guys drifted apart already .Im sorry to not be able to replace the happiness that your close buddies create when you're with them .You see ,friends come & go .Even if its the last thing that u believe .I used to have this very bestfriend & our relationship was so close just like u & them but things happen & I lost that close friendship tt I treasured so much .Its sad though .That's why now I never believe in bestfriend .Just close friend & bestbuddies .believe me ,along the way ,u'll find new friends ,u build new friendships & new bestbuddies.

Maybe they forget how gerek u guys were before ,maybe they just got too carried away with new surroundings or maybe ,the friendshipp just fade awayy .Its ok ,amirin .Don't cry .I know u love them so much .I know they're everythg in the world to u .I know u're a very caring person & if anythg bad happen to them ,no doubt they'll turn to u :))

Talking abt friends ,my friendship w my semangkes are fading alreadyyy .I went to rainee's blog few days back & I saw tis post ,a picture of them & a caption tt says somethg like 'I need these two...."

Its so sadd :(I know ,part of it is my fault .Our schedule alway clashes w one anthr but its just tt after reading tt ,im reluctant to like text them or somethg bcus ,who knows ,im an 'xtra' already .hais ,its ok .Im cool~

BUUTTT .im glad that I still have my gundus .We still do meetups .Coolkids .mai azieee farna they all .We went our separate wayys but we're still as one :))Still as grounded as before .I love them !& then I have my fun friends at Nafa ,(juziellaafannayukinfiticazul) .& my bestbuddy Fie !ha ha ,we can laugh together forever .& I have my Ubi peoples .ha ha ~matreps :))& so much more !I love u all so much :))Thanks for making my life colourful.

OOOOOOooh ,one more ,I miss my Rifhanationsss .A couple of times I tried meeting her but she already have plans .I hope we catch up some day babeh !I love u~

what a boring post !HA HA HA.

& a boring slacky day.

I wrapped my thumb w the kneadable? eraser .ha ha ha~

cool shitt kan.

& then I moved on to my index finger .ha ha ha~

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE KUEH !kueh tutu :))yummmeyyy.

& my favourite bubbletea shop !& milktea blended is my

favourite drink !YAYYY !

& the 2nd best cheesefries ever !w no chilli !but I still love KFC's

cheesefries.

k !I'll be updating about Nur'Kaisyah Atiqah :))

2008-11-18T21:39:00.000-08:00

K .This post will be full of random things.
ha ha .K I still don't like the word random.

here goes..

Travis Barker is back bayybehh !Ha ha ha ha.
I don't know .I think that Blink 182 is the coolest band ever!
I don't really favor other bandds ;although some are good.
They yall so lame =,= KWUAng kwuanng.
I travis barker ,ur mohawk rocks .Eventhough its not tt nice.

next..

Johnny knoxville is sooow hottt !ahhhh .he he he .even the name itself
'Johnny' & 'knoxville' ,is already hottttteeyy .HA HA AH. especially
when he wear his vintage shade. ..ooh haisss..
will u be my secret lover johnny ?hehe .he reminds me of my 2 other
hotteyyy .david cook & chad michael murray .Oh wow ~*melting*
imagine..
everyone : 'what's ur bf's name?'
me :'johnny ...johnny knoxville :))'
ha haHah a haHah A ha haHaha aAaaa ...dream on babeh!

k la ,sorry.
I just wanna go on a MacDonald
date with anyone of them.
My treat !cute or what.
Dresscode :thick pullover hoodies.

Ohhkey ,im hungryyy.
let's eat.................. ... ....

PASTAAAAA!

hmmmm i'll be back baby .Just so u know ,Im on holiday.

2008-11-17T22:11:00.000-08:00

Last day of school was accompanied w chicken porridge, umbrella & a huuuge yellow artfriend

plastic beg filled w fixative & my drawings.

Like now what do I do ?I bath!

Oke bathing :))

I think Im having a problem with my hair.

I don't know .Is it becus of the weather ?Or am I not taking good care of it ?The only thing

I know is that I invested on a very good hair spray :))weehee ~Good job sexaay!

kwuang kwuangg kwuanngg now I feel like eating ummm ,mummy's chicken again !Its so nice!

I ate twice already .BOOHOO.

WoOookeYyy ,since I can't take a bath ,i ll eat another chicken & rice :))

No ,so I didn't eat .Instead ,I took my morning bath.

ha ha h a .So.

so so so.

Tmr ,im gonna do something to myself .he he~

Im excited ,I don't know why.

Ohh no !I can't believe Im gonna be broke~!

sheeesh~

I wish I can just disappear.

2008-11-16T06:50:00.000-08:00

my hp's flash ,alway make me look flawless .ha ha KRIT .Oh hello friends .I just came back from my very first facial .Hehh ,it was bloodfish painful :(& the room was very dim ,it was scary actually .Simpang bedok next .I had tomyummy & mash potatoooes & teh peng .Before that I had rice & 3 chicken merah & lotsa desserrts !@ my aunt s .She is going to Haji w her husb .Have a safe trip :))muahs .It was weird though ,I didnt talk to dad & muma but at last we did bcus ...ummm we just have to?

This doesnt look like me & its so cheesyyyy.,

Just to tell ,I miss this hair of mine .Although ,I love my current hair .Its just that ...its not as long as that hair(above) .my back hair I mean.

I miss mass :(BoOohOOOOo .we alway fly high together .Im so buzy w sch ,I didnt even get a chance to give her a big hug .WaAaaLaUUuu mass !krit kritt uuurghhhhhhhhh .HA ha ha .I miss u beberRd!

anyway I told min to tag my board ,saying that I look like avril .ha ha ha ~!to passerby ,ala why rihanna ..why not avril ..HA HA HA .thanks anyway .Thank u very much to '.' /ha ha ha .no name whuuuaat .im crapping .I think its because Im confuse between sleepy and rotting .HA HA HAH A .see ,u see !KWUANNG Kwuanng kwuuang !I dont like to rott in my orange bed .Ohh !So now u guys know that I have an orange bed .queen size w maroon king size comforter :))I love the comforter very much much !Becus its bigger than my bed & its fluffy.

Sometimes I feel that u are just too paranoid & u ask too many questions .No doubt I get irritated with u easily but come on ,when im doing my hmwrk ,u dont have to be like that .It sucks when I have to concentrate on my hmwrk & at the same time ,stick my hp to my ears & have a conversation w u .Argh~U alway don't get it .&then u start whining & everythg which make me feel like fcuk ;like I wanna just hang up .I hate it !!!!!!!!!!!!!I hate it !& u can suddenly change ur mood like u become so nice & its like so weird like nothing happen .ARGH !I hate it I hate it .wateve watever.

thats all .im too moody already.

thanks eh.

2008-11-15T06:23:00.000-08:00

This was during fasting month .We went to LauPaSat .I love the fried bee hoon cockles .Delicious !~Ha ha .& that girl over there ,is so called me sister slash twin in sch cept that she is fairer & she have a strawberry faceshape .Mine is ,ummm .confused faceshape .big KRIT KRITT.

& these u guys ,are my badd buddies .Ha ha ~especially the one on the right .Thanks anyway ,for caring yest eh Zuhrie !ha ha .I left my blueberry tea on the table :(Thanks Fie :))for making it easier for me .ha ha ha pape picit beberd~

Im having a flu .Prolly ,due to my lack of sleep .I was awake from friday morning till saturday afternoon .Then ;knockout ~What do u expect .I only had like 3hrs of sleep each daay for the past week.

Now ,im hungeeeereeeyyyy .No more food at home .left with little money thanks to the cab fare on Friday night =,=Shud bloody take the train or bus!

bye!

im fcuk fcuk sleepy again.

2008-11-14T03:11:00.000-08:00

HA HA HA HA this was yesterday .After 3 consecutive days of assessment ,we re done babe !HA HAHAHa Haha !Im loving it`padapappappa yahoo .I only like my drawing assessment .The rest can ummm .. /go to hell .I don't like 3d & design process eventhough my model is cute !HaHAHAHAHAHAHA.

We were at lounge yest & we slept for a few hours & then have fun & chillax .It was kinda like a relaxing session after abt a week of sleepless nights ~HA HA HA .And today after a briefing from the head of FineArt & our lectures ,I had another photoshoot with Ayu .HA HAHaHAHHAaa ~in a studio .*mcm professional la kan* .HA HA HA.
& I like the pictures better than the one we had at Botanical Garden .I ll get the pictures one day.

Starbucks is making me sleepy peepy .I don't want to go home .Tmr im working but I hate my christmas polo tee becus the XS is too big :(

K babes !I ll be back.

ouhh ,!I was having my macDonald's fries when Rihanna was rocking her concert .My friends told me it was a blast ~WAHhhHhHhh avril better .BOOOO ha ha ha.

2008-11-12T08:33:00.000-08:00

I VE BEEN WANTING TO SAY THIS SINCE END OF LAST WEEK !DID U KNOW THAT I JUST GOT TO KNOW THAT 'UNGU' BANDMATES ARE FCUKSHYTT HOT & ULTRA MULTIPLY BY TEN CUTE ?!AHH !!CAIR CAIR CAIR CAIR!

THEY HAVE A GREAT VOCALIST .I THOUGHT THEY ARE LIKE OLD OLD GUYS BUT THEN I SAW THEM AT SURIA LAST WEEK & WAHHHHH I MELT LIKE MELTED SUGAR .HA HA HA .THEY ARE SOOOOOO CUTE SIA !THE VOCALIST & THE ONE WEARING BLACK WHEN HE APPEARED ON SURIA .WAAAHH !OKE NOW IM GOING TO BE A FAN OF THEM ALREADY .HA HA HA HA ~I HAVE THEM IN MY HP's PLAYLIST:))

Me: How come he looks so hot when his sleeping?
Ziella: Tu la .Hot eh bile die tido .Tapi bile bangun mcm tak hot sgt.

WhuWhaUWAHuAH

Ooh ,I've been seeing alot of cute lepak chinese guys ard my sch .Zieeeeella u know I know .What happen to the malay guuyyssss .theyall are dyinggg already .Talking about boys ,I have this secret abt guys .There's this ,ummm ,like when guys make this very very simple move ,I will surely surely surely melt like babat .Ha ha ~I think no one knows .I would love to tell a friend abt it .HA ha ha .Nothing censored .Just this little move that can make me blush & melt like kental .HA HA~

ha ha ,here I am talking about boys .Ha ha ,most of them can' think properly & are jerks .Ha ha .Still we girls fall for them .why .On top of all those neverending bad qualities they're the only one whom can make us feel so very special ;feel that greatest feeling in the whole wide world .I've felt that before.

The excitement & anxiety of a first date .The great conversation on the second date and the beginning of something new .Lots of surprises.

& then it all seems to come to an end .He likes her bestfriend or she ditched him for another guy or he finds her crappy or she overreacted or as complicated as it can get.

Then again ,there's alway Karma.

I need to sleep already,

2008-11-12T07:37:00.000-08:00

He bought me macspicy for breakfast.
He left me $3.15 on my dressing table ;wants me to hav
my cheeseprata.
He placed his singlet on my bed.
He bought me Chocobaby for snack.

He gave me the most tightest hug
& the longest kiss.

He took my picture.

& then Amirin left me..... 2.30 in the morning.

Sometimes ,when someone's gone ,that's when u started realising .& when u realised ,its too late already .Not for my case thoughh ,Im very lucky .I don't know why human brain works like that .When his gone ,I felt somethin missing like so obviously missing .I didn't know he played a big part in my life .My handphone felt so lonely .No morning 'brainstorm' calls .No mges again & again which irritates me a lot .No aftersch calls .No nothing .Just a lonely hp .With 5 megapixel camera *ha ha!belen2* .Knowing that its gonna be the same tmr ,kills me .I miss him .very very much .I bought his singlet to sch today & Im wearing my 'footy' shert which was soaked w my tears & his smell becus he was huggin me all the time .His necklace he placed ard my neck which im not allow to take off .I've been thinkin about amirin all the time .& tried not to look at my phone hoping for a msg.

I miss u amirin & Im behaving like a baby.

Rihanna's concert is tomr .HA HA HA ~Some of my friends are going I think .HA H AH A .I don't like her actually .I HATE DISTURRBIA .I HATE PLS DONT STP THE MUSIC .She have some nice songs but then its not hers anyway .I just find that Rihanna have this same voice all the way in all of her songs .I don't find her amazing enough but its not like Im anti-rihanna .Whateve .Anyway to those going ,HAVE FCUK FUN!!~

today is the last day of assessment .Although 3d & design process assessments' done ,Im still scared that I can't pass :(

k i'll sleep for an hour then do my drawing.

p s;one two three four 1 thing 2 say 3 words 4 you ;i love u.
some things are better left unsaid.

2008-11-10T20:30:00.000-08:00

I was so happy to get that big pathetic ice cream that I misplaced my shawl .Or was is ard my neck ?That was from sch .Fcuk ,pathetic food .Cost me my $5 & the ice cream was icy =,=

This was a different day.

YAY !Assesment for 3d design is overrrrrrrrrr ~I don't think I did good .My craftmanship sucks to the core of the undertaker *Everybody KRIT* .k k k k .Guess what ,Littlemiss. spendthirft slash dumbblonde spent $50 on cab fee this morning !FCUKER KAN !I was being a real dumbass I spent $20 on my first trip to sch .& then when I reached there ,I didn't bring stuff that Im supposted to bring .I didn't know man `Just for the extra mark ,I went back .Cost me another $14 .& back to sch again ,another $20 ?Irritating beberd sia !ARGHH ~

I was fcuk angry with dad so I decline his offer to send me to sch today .I told him I need a lift this tuesday cus there's noway I could squeezed all my 8 3d pieces & A2 mounting board in bus 65 .BUT .He was really being a bitch for the last 2 days .He scolded me for going back late .Dammit I was bloody doing my assignments UNDER MY BLOCK till late because I needed the big & open space & he was being a bitch !I hate u .U even hav the cheek to scold me becus I was sleeping very late these few days .u asked me to change my lifestyle fcuk fcuk knncb .I WAS COMPLETING MY ASSFCUK ASSIGNMENTS SIA !I WASN'T EVEN GOING OUT OR SURFING THE NET .U WOULDN'T EVEN WANA HELP CB CB CB CB CB CB .I was practically slamming everythg .I accidentally slept in the middle of the floor & he was screamin` knn cb .I cried .He was really being a bitch & I want to lock him up so he could bloody fcuk shutup.

k fcuk bye .I need to switch off the lappy.

batt low warn sign pops out.

ps ;he bought me doughnut at 6.30am & send it to me infront of my house because he knew I was stressed out and wanted me to have breakfast :))

2008-11-07T11:36:00.000-08:00

Fcuk !YEAH !last day of printmaking & this was my last work that needs to be done .the blOOOOdy woodcut .I took 5mins to draw it ,3 hrs to plan & 9 hours to carve it out & make 4 pieces of it dammit !No its not painting its fcuking woodcut .When u have to use the carving tools to carve it & then rollers & paints & compressor & knncb .oh ,plus 1 hr to figure out what colour goes & blends well & another 1 hr of waiting for each layer to dry before continuing with another =,=

Im alway struggling when it comes to this part =,= I have very weak arms ok & Ziella totally made my day by tearing my artwork when she tried to help me .THanks eh~
Anywat sum it up I did almost 50 pieces for printmaking.
Good job ROHANA .ha ha.//fcuk.

I bought this just few hours ago :))I had complications when I was trying it out .(Chey complications ,berangan doctor la kan .OHWELL) The piece was quite complicated .Mcm baju yg Fish try pat ripcurl tuh .ha ha~

Im really buzy with sch assessments :(It saddens me because I don't have the time for myself. On the other hand ,my holiday is in a weeks' time & im kinda excited .And it'll stretch till january 2009 .Wow ,09's coming already .Really ,I don't look forward to 09 .Yes ,new beginning .New resolutions which I strongly doubt I have any .Im just scared of some things that might repeat .Im scared that my parents will forget abt my birthday again .Im scared that sem 2 will be tougher than ever .Im scared that feelings will come & go .Im scared that I will bump into dates & events that I don't need to be reminded .2008 is a bad year for me .I have had too many stuffs on my shoulder & I hurt my brain alot .Im just happy with 2 things .That my hair is waay longer than 07 & that Im still in touch with my cute gundus :))

A LETTER OF COMPLAINS & WHINES.

You know when you're in an art sch ,things can get really messy to the extend of lying on dirty grounds .You don't care if u look retarded or u get ur clothes dirty .I find art very hectic & challenging here .Its so different in sec sch like art was easy peasy for me in sec sch .I was alway the top & my competitors were ummm ,not intimidating enough .BUT .Here in nafa ,gosh ,you have to really be on the go & crack ur brain to come up with something that is made by u & impressive enough .Grade A used to be so easy for me but now a B- will make my day already .See the minus ?there's B- ,B & B+ .U have to be a D&T as well as an Art student .U have to be a brainy (for art history) U have to be expressive & have good vocabs becos we have TONS of essays to do (500-800 words!) I mean its like dammit !yes fcuk thats the word baby .Each day I worry about incomplete assignments becos its either I have to do hands-on or do the goddammit essays !& now drawings seems to be the easiest thing .I hate 3d & design process !!Don't tell me we have to learn rendering in sem2 becos the fcukin markers cost $6 each & imagine the number of markers I need to get :(SAD life la people .& KNNCB ,comes w a free toy with purchase of every happy meal :)!comes w a compulsory journal w submission of every module's assessment :(!

KRIT KRIT SIA 3D & DESIGN PROCESS ALSO NEED JOURNAL!

Everyone let's cry for me.

1min...

krit ..2mins..

3 krit krit mins.

End of complains.

I had 2 plain roti pratas & a roti prata cheese for the whole day.

teh peng also!

tmr ,Instead of just the photoshoot at Botanical garden @ 9am ,I have to pass fishy the $30 I owe her :((All I want to do this saturday & sunday are to complete my 3d & design process .I've had enuf of worrying & typing .HAIS Mum invites me to a facial this Sunday !my first facial .I didn't decline .But why of all time this SUNDAY ?!Beberd sia gini .BOoOHoOOOOoooooOOoO banyak banyak.

by Sunday ;latest Monday.u>

mindmap.

paint clay.

paint bckgrd.

mechanism clock.

cardboards.

Take pictures.

spray 5 structure babyblue.

spray 1 structure black.

A2 mountin board.

take pictures.

complete mounting board.

3d knncb journal.

5 essays.

FCUK DONE!~

By Tuesday.

crumpled paper thingy!**************

perspective drawing.

100 sketches.

<u>By Wednesday

statue drawing.

100 sketches.

take sketch from SHAY !!

3 mounting boards.

By following Sunday

Investigating Art JOURNALLL.

3 essayssssss.

FCUK DAMMIT DONE~!!!!!!!!!!!!

sing :don't stress don't stress don't stress.

2008-11-05T07:23:00.000-08:00

I had this celebrity vibe in class just now so I decided to search for avril's picture & britney .This was Britney before & I told u .She's Fcuker hot !I still think she's hot now .I think she's the only blonde girl who can dance like a black & hot bodyyyy & hot hair!

Speakingg of blonde .............I am NOT a dumb blonde =,=Afann!
dumb blonde just sounds so ......DUMBass!

Those pictures ;all of em` ,its me ~ha ha ha .K sorry ar aku berangan seminit .Oh well ,Avril & I ,.........ha ha ha ha ~I dont know how to continue the sentence .I love Avril .Die-hard fan ?yes !definitely .Let's hang out avril !ha ha ha ha shuddup.

Im tired .I need to sleep becos yest I only had 3 hours of sleep .I did my 3d .Im done with my patio swing & my ferriswheel & my tree & my human figure .I need to do another human & an abstract piece with my eggtrays .he he Kinda relieve that I've completed it .for 3d im left with the a2 boards for my plan .I even complete the sketches !ha ha .Im stuck with my design process .Mindmap's hlaf done .I think im doing the whole model tmr :))

In a weeks time ,I ll be as free as a bird !YAYY !because my holiday is just ard the corner :))I want to work so I can buy myself a cupboard sized shelf where I can place all my art stuffs .Yeahh & Amirin's going to Bali next week on wednesday ?Surf stuffs at half the price of S'pore .Ohh bali.....

Annnana tucked in already.

sweetnight:))

2008-11-04T10:02:00.000-08:00

ha ha.

hello zuhrie.

let's go eat prata~

I miss bayyyyygon.

Dekat la ,jln je.

jauh rohana//

blablabla..

hyped & messy& cold & big hair & thicker bangs.

Im sleepy but Im determine not to sleep .ha ha what am I talking about.

I can't bring myself to write a little about something here .what am I talking about .I am listening to tercipta untukmu ungu on repeat .Stylish right rohana listen to malay song !what am I talking about .I am in loveee

w preety baby & makeup smeared eyes thanks to ziella .what am I talking about .I feel shytty yet I smile & make everything alright .See how I'm typing things out .See how insecure I am .ha ha .what the hell am I talking about .I cut my fringe .I have bangs .I cut more fringe .I have thicker bangs .what am I talking about .You guys shud try e toffee nut latte/frappucino blended coffeeorcream/iced .Fcuk nice .what am I talking about.

I wanna go to work.

& then.
I wanna go to parkway starbucks.
& then.
I chilled w partners there.
& then.
I wanna walk to the beach.
& then.
I wanna sit on a bench.
& then.
I wanna eat curry puff with potatoes.
& then.
I wanna walk to parkway back.
& then.
I wanna cab home.

2008-10-31T02:51:00.000-07:00

im sitting at starbucks concourse .I followed min to work & here I am .He present me with his lappy ;keep me company .So ~Im watching The Hills season 1 .Just wana look back .I finished season 4 already .Do I have to tell it all ?ha ha .Amirin asked me out but I said I wana hang out with my friends .No one was free .Even my baby Rifhan .I miss her :(It felt like yrs since we'v met & yesterday was her birthday .I didn't get to go to her party though cus of sch & today I skipped all classes .Great or what .I bought mee kuah & Im still waiting for min to have his break so we could share .I usually buy cranberry &walnut toast but I pass it .It reminds me of my very own cranberrywalnut toast .He made me sad .But im not that mad .I mean ,he must have been feeling his worst .Now ,his rotting at home .Thats what he saidd/Oowell.

I feel like wearing a wig right now .I hate my hair colour its like there's so many colours involved like i've dyed so many times & it all ended up being this colour tt doesn't even have a name to it !wateve =.=Its getting really cold in here & now im like mumbling to myself what im writing so I think I look stupid right now .ha ha ha ha ~well ,I used to be called a physco when I was in sec sch :))HA HA HA .I hated that ok .I nver liked it.

hello im back .i just had dinner with min .The mee kuah SCUKS!

k i would loveeeeeeee to blog more but andy's here & I wana watch the hills .so goodday.
have fun smile alway.

love ana.

2008-10-30T18:56:00.000-07:00

hey marilyn :))

I told u im not smiling.

chilling after Chai Chee Seafood Restaurant.

we had brownies & ice cream.

in the car to amirin's uncle new house.

& that's his mum.

worned out.

I have smelly feet in the morning .Oh yes I wore shoes & didnt wash up.

My eyeliner smudged so much .ha ha .I skipped morning class today .I woke up late & wasnt feeling the vibe .History vibe .HA HA .& its my first time skipping this class so yeah .I'm killing the time by watching The Hills & Newport Harbour .Im lovin' it baby .and I hate spencer .I love lauren & audrina & chrissy & clay .ha ha.

Im having problems being happy .When did it get so hard to smile each time I wake up in the morning ?No ,I'm not depressed =,=thats a strong word .I'm just loooooooooooooooooooossssssst.

I think I'm gonna take a bath ,get ready ,eat something then chaow .I need to get to the ATM machine again to do the transfer .Its killing me .I'm sorry fish .I can't click with the Atm machine =,=?

No im getting it done.

Dear amirin ,what have u done .what have u done .Im sorry for turning my back on u & just switched off .I knew something wasn't right .Right.

2008-10-29T02:09:00.000-07:00

Pictures from ziella's lappy :))Im happy today .I did alot on my assignments

& im meeting my boyfriend for early dinner ?He just wants to eat chicken today =,=

k he just texted me !gotta run hunney.

2008-10-27T07:52:00.000-07:00

I feel like giving myself up.

giving up of everything there is & was.

2008-10-27T06:00:00.000-07:00

I have a great boyfriend ,no doubt .The one that I could turn to ,talk abt anything & everything under the sun .Yet .I am not satisfied .Something about life doesnt works for me .Its not working .I have everythg I need now .My dream school .A shelter .Fabulous friends .Cute clothes .Great boyfriend .But there's just something that's not working right now .I don't know .I think im sad like when u dig in me like deep enough u'll see that Im not all happy .I don't know .I still don't get it .It is alway like this ?Like ,you'll never be satisfied w your possesions or what ?Tell me man .Oh well ,Im gona continue with schoolwork .My brainjuice is working like extra creative today :))

Wow ,whirlwind of emotions
inside of me.
I need my guitar:(

I realise somethg.
I respond to things differently,
or I just like give the Kritt face.
ha ha.

I hate stereotype.

I need to be tall.
& more fleshy.

2008-10-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

Amirin's family & me are going to give a birthday surprise
to his father ,Mr.Amme @ 12.It's the man's birthday :))
happy birthday big man !May u be happy & handsome =,=

2008-10-25T04:26:00.000-07:00

Ju Me Afann Zul Ica.

Im going to try to be a nice girl.

I am nice ,just sometimes I get so mean ,I can say

hunndreds of bad things about a person in

a single breathe:))

Bitchy ?ha ha ,yes.

30mins of destressing=the hills :))

& prisonbreak.

Such tiredness overwhelms my body ,I didnt even know I ve

fallen asleep ,like a corpse .I look terrible !With leftover eyemake up & sticky body & clothes .Sad littlesheep I am :((I can feel my flesh becoming lesser & lesser .I should be learning guitar chords to the song Yellow .The part that goes something like "your skin & bones" ..Im left w skin & bones !ha ha .Whatever ,at least Im not aneroxic . Oh Thank you.

hungry .I had 2 fried chicken .Oily & a little crispy .I eat only healthy to semi-healthy food ,like few days back ,mum's cooking was kinda brutal so I decided to make myself soup !HA HA ,it taste yucky !But thanks to mum's 3mins of walking-thru-the-kitchen-to-take-a-glass-of-water ,she stop & taste & said "Add chicken stock cube" &waaalaa !~stylish ar ma!

Therefore ,Night's menu:Non-vegetarian Soup & Ikan bawal goreng.

& Today's Menu:Udara bilikku & krit.

k the hills time!

2008-10-21T05:13:00.000-07:00

Caption: Like a baby.

hello friends .Its my second post for the day & I ve been wee wee-ing for the past 4hours .I think its because of the Nata De Cocosssss i ve been consuming .hehhs ~Im hungry again & my little bruther`` getting mee kuah for me !YAY !weeehee ~//

it sucks how my merlion that im trying to draw turns out looking like a pig !Ugh ~I ve been working hard on my landscape drawing but I guess I really hate drawing buildings .Stuffs like 3d dimensionshyts .I hate it !I fcuk hate it man !& it sucks that my mee kkuah taste suckish .Boohoo ~I wanted to tear my piece but Im left w no more A2 so nw ,instead of tearing ,im using the backside of it .Pathetic right ~

hello im sstill doing my landscape .this thing is killing me right now ...Ooo boyfriend ,im sorry i keep scolding u nowadays .Im just too caught up with sch work ,I dont even have time for myself ,for us .Evrything is against me so its kinda hard to not be angry slash cranky slash moody & im 90% tired so I hope u ll understandd .I still need u by my side .Its gonna be over soon & soon enuf ,I ll be as healthy & enjoying life again!:))

k im gona go nw .My landscape calling me.

2008-10-21T01:09:00.000-07:00

See my arms !Im left with skin & bones !ha ha ,im making a fool of myself.

This is how skinny I am now :))Sad Life !ha ha ha .plus I ve been falling sick on & off for a whole week ,I even told Amirin Im tired of taking medicines .Boohoo help :( ha ha .I bought a kimono looking black dress & its more than cute !weEehee :))Lets see .I need a new pair of contacts .A pencil skirt w a front slit .An i-dont-knw-hw-2-describe skirt .A ruffled top .That forever 21 white tutu-like dress .& I need my monthly doze of ripcurl/quiksilver/volcom .I need my $600 monthly pay :((Anyone can offer me a job that pays $900 a month ?Boohoo ,I dont like the taste of my tongue when sick & I dont like to wee wee when im sick.

YAY !Britney s back !Yahu !ha ha ha ~I love Britney .She was so hot last time .Hehhs ~//Then she became disgusting .And then !She s Back !huhu .she s a hawwwwtyy :)))

IM HUNGRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!

Ooh ya ,when you re sick ,do you see everything yellowish yellowish in colour ?I do !& i dont like it ~Puui.

2008-10-18T23:16:00.000-07:00

Today is a happy day for me .Im picking up on my meals .I eat better & abit more .Im catching up on my sleeps .Basically ,Im re/energised yay !Yest I organised my sch assigments .Im on my way to success yay !But sad thing ,I received a warning letter from Nafa .Im ok with it .Most of it was because Im late :))So now ,Im spending a little time to blog .To tell the world that Im happy :))Yeah .I also settled some things already ,so its not bothering me anymore .Im happy .The littlegirl s happy .On the other hand ,Im sick .Im having this on off on off fever =,=but im happy that mum
knew that im sick .She saw my medicine`s plastic & asked me .I once told them tt im sick bt they couldnt be bothered .At least nw mum knew :))She made the effort to buy me ChengTeng & putu piring .Im so happy !Mum cares !Nw she s off to pasir ris jemputan .As for my father ,dont bother asking .He is still the meanest & noone can negotiate anythg w him .He sucks !I dont need u to be proud of me & I dont want to prove to u anythg.
I really like this thingg here .I dont know what it is but it taste so baby baby .Hehhs ~I likeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee,,
I miss this bloody littlegirl .Ikahhh ! !!!!!!!!!~She s been asking Amirin "Anty ana mane .anty ana skul eh .anty ana mane Anty ana takde "Its sad tt I cant meet her today & today its her mum s 22 Birthday !!YAYY !I love the both of them :))

Cute or what amek gamba beside flowers .Ha ha ~Anyway for this raya I didnt get to jln raya with Amirin :(Oh !This is my house !Yahu ~

And the pictures below .Ha ha ~Using Ziella s webcam .I was sick & too stressed up with my cardboard thingy I took a break w e webcam .5 mins only eh Ziella.HAHA.

That s Brian ;expert in Photoshop.
The pictures w Brian was one of the last ones we took.

stress ar .ha ha

That guy there ,his name is Fish & behind him ,its Ica.

I hate my Hp s flash !Fcuk bright.
Ziella muke mintak kene kepang.
& this was waaaay back during Andy s Birthday :))Andy s the one holding the cake .Ish ~I look at the picture ....smcm Gangster ah korg .Ha ha~//k kasi chance .Anyyhoo ...This is my ubi people :))I met them when I was gegerl sec2 .he he~ 4 yrs of useless friendship .Ha ha haha ~muke same je tak tuka tuka.
4 yrs of useful friendshipp & 3weeks of schmates in Nanyang poly .ha ha~

I didnt take a picture with hakim .Zuhri Min & Akim .We used to go out everyweekends or holidays together & then I used to chill with akim & andy & andiqah & her lil irritating bruther .I miss those times la korg .When zuhri fcuk stupitt played w the escalator @ esplanade .HA HA HA on a friday .&when the 3 of them karaoked at Zuhri s house ,use the tv remote as microphones .HA HA HA& alot of stupid stuffs ,I just lay on the floor w bantal & laughed .it was fcukin funny !& the pictures of u 3 wearing underwears ,it was at zuhri s & I was on the phone w akim !ha h aha .& zuhri sesat sendiri pat daerah rumah kallang die =,=we had so much fun together ,we were behaving like kidss ,still carefree :)))))))))))))))))))I MISS I MISS I MISS.

This was few days back when we have to do our Investigating Art assigment @ Raffles .Snapped some landscapes ,must have nice perspectives .Im not as good as them when it comes to photgraphy but I did took some nice pictures.
me ziella ica kin ayu fit

Thats all .Hehhs ~Now im gona continue w my assignment ;half-completed .I need A2 cartridge paper right now //Argh .Shit i forgot about printmaking .Boohoo.k

im happy .Thanks for making me

happy.

2008-10-14T09:29:00.000-07:00

LIPAS & BEETLE.

& a male BODY.

my brother harun vs flying cocroach & beetle.

Its very funny but I guess I cant be bothered to tell .

I backspaced the whole chunk of post that I ve just typed out .I just couldnt post it .There were too much feelings .Too much for people to know .I just ..I cant bring myself up like I used to .No .I cant .Forget it.

My page is such a bore now ,indeed .Boohoo to me ,myself & I ~I am feeling like a downright loser from Canada .I am a robot.

All I do is assignments .Get aggitated with Amirin .& then I hoped .I hoped & I hoped .All these things getting into me ,Im dying out .Soon.

I feel like throwing this samsung phone straight ,jacked at ur face fcuker .U re a fcuker who dont know what ur talking abt 80% of the time .Make that 78% .& in this case ,I am ,of course ,still am ,at the losing end .I hate myself for giving in so much to u & I still am .Its 2am & Im still on my thinking mode .HAis goodbye.

I want to exchange this heart w anyone whose very willing to.

2008-10-12T04:10:00.000-07:00

Im totally worned out .Im tired.
Yesterday was Andy`s birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY andyy :))
I had work till 3.30 but was extended to another hr cus
my partner fell sick & He went home early.
I was being bullied by my store manager .He irritated me
so much I feel like killing him ,ha ah~//
I waited for fishy sayang & then we talked.
Im so sorry cus I keep delaying 'saloon day' :((
She went for work while i took a cab to Amirin s house.
Ate my favourite fish that his mum cooked & I got
ready to go to Andy`s .I was so slow ,I was delaying everythg.
Ha ha ~By the time we went out ,it was already 9 =,=
Took a cab & happy birthday happy birthday mini celebration.
It was not tt big but its cute that at least his mum wanted to make
somethg for his birthday :))My parents didnt even remembered
my birthday this yr :((So ........Took pictures & we went to Grandlink.
I thought it was for karaoke but there s abit of pool too~
I sat inside e karaoke ,& I was like stoning 81% of the time.
I got to sing 2 songs & I was fcuk shyt nervous my voice was like
littlegirl come & play with me =,= ha ha h a ~karaoke pat rumahh
noriz baru best :))Ha ha bile nk karaoke noriz!
I was almost asleep ,Min was already sleeping at the couch.

So I told Amrin lets go home & yeah .Tt was e end of the day.
& today I was draaaaaaaaged to follow go Raya-ing w family :(
sleepy like @$%& .Im supposted to be sleeping now but I insisted
on completing some of my hmwrks .I ve got SOOOOOOOOOOOO
fccukening lots of final assesments to do I might as well die!

Anyway I hope andy had fun yohaAaa ~

i have so many things to do ,soo little time~

2008-10-10T09:42:00.000-07:00

Acting cute for the night~

Today was sports day for Nafa .Sounds funny right ?Maybe tryna keep us healthy which is totally the opposite because we have students smoking all over =,=krit krit .I was disappointed cus I wanted to join some activities but I was too late for any .So we chilled .It was hot & extremely humid ,so we were practically sweating all the time .No la ,just shiny & stunning :))
Nafa`s tarzan & jane was adorable ,not hot ,just cute .I went straight home ,took a looooooong bath which I stoned 80% of the time & fell asleep for a good 3 plus hrs :))That explains why im still up when Im working in a few hrs time .I wanted to go to aunty s place at Ubi to fill up my empty little stomach but then it was cancelled as my family already went home by the time I made my way there :(The ubi ppl raya visited my house .Ha ha ~It was a short one ,thank god :))& I didnt get to speak to Aida .Boohoo .Anyway ,I feel better now .I think Im toning tonight .Im not gonna sleep .K ,im hungry :(I cant wait for next yr ,when I am legal to take my bike & car license.

Im still hungry now but im used to not eating already .I dont know .I cant finish my food nowadays & I am used to being so hungry that Im not hungry anymore .Im so sad ~I might get skinnier .

Nur Hakim,
Thanks for making me a fighter in life ,made my skin a little bit thicker .Made me stronger ,made a huge different in my life .You taught me things .You made me believe .But everytime I looked at u now ,I feel like taking 10 steps back .I can still cry .I ll alway look down.
Thought I would forget But I ,I ll remember.

Dan kepada kawanku nora ;kau jgn
mcm paham eh skrg .Bebual mane nyer besa.
Takle angkat sia aku perangai kau tadi.
Kwn mkn kwn so kau diam.

2008-10-08T08:26:00.000-07:00

& finally .Mr. Amirin Kassim .ha ha ~smrg je kassim .He wanted me to put his picture so badly ,so yeahh !same slippers ,same leg bandddd :))

wo ai ni yoha~

2008-10-07T22:20:00.000-07:00

ARGH !chibai sia ni bende ~~~I ve typed like soooooooooooo long with lotsa lotsa i mean fcukign lots of pcitures !& its all gone sia !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FCUKF CUKING CHIBAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII fCUK.

2008-10-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

My body s temp is higher than normal .my throat felt funny .There s a bump on the right side of my neck .Im sick .But the bloody doctor ...I think his too old already .He only gave me antibiotics & fever .No flam pills .No neck relief meds .& a bloody mc =,= $25 wasted .Even polyclinic s better .Yeah ,& no heaadache pills .Im like KRIT KRITT .k done with tt .Eventhough I was sick ,I still dragg myself to Bdk Inter to sell the phone & fcuk yeahhh ~!!!!I got another $120 ...WOOHOOO ~So ..I bought myself a new samsung phone !YAHUUU !my soul samsung .Its not slim .Its not that big .Its like coolshyt sia :))Im happy ,BUUUTTT ,i still like my previous silver samsung hp :( on Sunday ,at the hospital .My uncle was admitted there on the second day of Raye .Sad right ?~Hehhs ,&there s me ,just minutes before I sleep :))Garok telinge first .Itchy.
Rashid aka A. aka my dad
& that is my brother :))Its been so long since I put my brother s picture.
not nice.
my favourite cousin ;in gold .He is dammit good in fashionnnn thingy & art .i think his waaaay better than the fashion design students in Nafa but his schooling in a madrasah sch .A yr younger than me :))& he knows all the models by name & he collects "BAZAAR" magazines .all the way back since 2006 issues .I really think his extraordinary & I hope someone spot him in the future .He even goes to his sch library *madrasah Aljunied library =,=* & borrowed books like "chanel " .."Versace" & asked me to read it =,=like I bothered .& he will tell me stories abt the designers & blablabla ..& he excels in studies .Madrasah students have waaaay more subjects to cope than us .He even have stack & stacks of clothes ..shoes ..hatss design .Some even painted with water colour .Like a...like a...born with talent ..I love him :))

k the picture abt & the rest of it below was taken on Sunday .Raya outing .& yest ,was with friends .He he ~Ooo ,its like one of the days when u look perfect .Yeahh ~Ha ha ha .I look good on that day .but I look bad yest !I dont know :((Oh faris ,sorry smlm aku mara kau .ha ha ~Aku ckp kau perangai sebab tak take turns mkn satay & kite da lambat .Maaf zahir batin man ~..& thank you AFiqqqqqqq !For sending me home :))& acap afiq ridwan biman for the cab fare .YAHU !~I had alot of funn though .I love you guys yoha!
Cn see the insde of my noserils .he he ~CLEAN WHATT
my sayang semuanya ~Apis & ayul littler bruthers .big bruthe @ work.

i like apis in this picture .he he
paparazzi one.
paparazzi two.

I kinda like this picture .paparazzi three .My make up s perfect & I did it in a short time .& Thank you hair for being nice .he he ~ Like I said .I look nice that Sunday .Nicer than 1st day of hari raya .ACtually I look horrible on every 1st day of raya xcept for yr 2006 .Dont ask why ,its just like that.
Actually ,Im closing only one eye .Cant u see that another s open..& Rock on~
cool RIGHT !we get coins !50 50 cents & $1 !!COOL uh.

Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .Anyway Im so not use to my hair .I dyed it few days back & its like red purple .I like the colour but then my hair used to be in shades of light brown ..blonde ..& warm colours .changin it to a deep red s kinda weird .When I look into the mirror ,Im like "I didnt know I look like that" .YEah .Give me a few days k hair .& i think im doing some adds on to my hair .Not sure what but just wait & see :)

Oooh to the tagger ,its purple & white blonde.

Anywayyyy ..talking abt raya ,my collection is umm .$450 ?Ard there or abit lesser .Its little compared to previous years :(But amirin ssaid "bersyukur k syg " .he he ~Otay !yeahhk !& my payy ths mth is fcukk little sia !$3ooplus only :((((((((((((((BooOohHOOo ..Sad siaaaaaaaaaaa .& then I ve only went out w family for raya visits on Sunday & e day of raya itself /I think there s more to come :))

So yeah !I BOUGHT MYSELF A NEW HP .DENGARRR TU MIN!

samsung jugakkk ~Yahu & Im buying myself a new cupboard for all my art stuffs :))it ll cost me another $100pluss :(

Money money money ..haiyoo ~If only I have a million .I ll be happy.

& my plan to redecorate repaint my room ,will have to wait till my

holidays when I could work like a piggg.

ooo ,I like yas s new hair colour :))Just be more more more berisi ok.

& I ve yet got hold of my friend s memory cards .spelled with an 's'.

so imagine the picturesssssssssssssss.

PICTURESSSS.

I miss rifhan & I miss semangkes.

But I know they dont really know.

that i miss them.

my head is like 50kg now ..

so pain ...help~

2008-10-04T07:03:00.000-07:00

my fcuking favourite dress ever!

EMO kan ?krit kritt sia nana.

Bluek ~goodnight fellas.
my love ,look at what you ve done to me~

today was work day :))Im happy to go to work i dont know why .I stayed there after my shift to wait for Fish .She s alway the one I could story story with .I accompanied her till 8.

(this is like the few times I can close one eye .GEREK ape~)

TITLE :WHY I AM UNHEALTHY.

im not naked ok .Right now ,I think some of my braincells are dead .For real ~Im a stupid girl .Girls don`t to that kinda stuff .I stopped but i don`t know if its forever .But seriously ,some of my braincells are Dead :(& im getting skinnier which I hate alot .I think i should take GNC already =,=& I think i got a little cheekbone .Due to my skinnyness .But i still have little fats on my cheeks .Ok why am I talking like this ?Maybe moodswings ?i ve been feeling emotional lately .Ha ah ~& then it turns into laughter .I dont know .Im going crazy .& im not eating like a monsta anymore .I eat little food & I dont eat mums cooking .Sad kan .I even need to buy oxygen for my facial skin =,= As for my hair ...SEE THE TOP PICTURE !It looks dry & worthless & stupid & blablabla .BooOOHOO !i feel like going for hair treatments everyday for the rest of my life !Ha ha ha .,krit.

Or am I just too self conscious ?HA HA HA HA .Anyway im hungry .& i dont even care about it .See ?!?!Unhealthy beast .I feel like eating sashimi everyday for the rest of my life .BOOHOO !& more ben & jerry Ice creams & blended drinks ..& my ice vanilla latte yahu ~NiCE!

she my cool friend fish & me :))at work just now .I ve never took a picture of myself at work before ,so this is the first :))I predict that im ganna stick to Starbucks for at least a year .I ve been working for the last 7 months & Im happy with it .Making coffee :)I think my store is one of the friendliest store in Sg .Starbucks ..starbucks ..thanks eh ;every mth take cpf money from my pay =,=
oo ,its from freshkon .Welcome dougg~//ha a hah a ~Azie Seron ,remember when I told u I wana wear greenn contacts & u laughed at me telling me that i ll look like an Alien ?HA ha ha .krit kritt /I think im growing my fringe back .I wana try other partings ;p center parting ?hehs~Oo & i ve been imagining .I tihnk fish & maiwill look great with center parting .I dont know ;somehaw :)HHAHAHAHA .K so ,what am I doing now ,I am eating 2 very dried up nuggets .The only food left in the kitchen =,=

Oo ,I think to make myself happy ,Im buying myself a new hp & Im going to the saloon withh fish !Anyone wants to taggggggggggggggg along ?msg me msg me !Ask azie for my number !Or Amirin !Otay .Which means I havta skip my plan for a new acoustic :( ohh my godding .I am seriously dammit crapping .Argh ~Blame it on my period .AHAHAHAR.

I hategirls who say Rawrrrrrrrr .RAWR la kau banyak banyak .WhuWUhaWuhwAuhAhuwHwAAaAa ~Just now I wanted to buy the feather-like lashes but then I was like blur .So I kinda just look & go =,= mcm touch & go ~

2008-10-02T18:57:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE.

ESPECIALLY TO UMAT ISLAMss.

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN~

happy eh collection budak budak.

as for me ,im semi-budak budak.

HA HA ,kental kn.

Anyway ,enjoy people!

to my gundus ,see you soon gengg !Ha ha ,sorry i know

you guys dont know my number .I changed it :))

K nak datang rumah bilang eh.

& this is a day before Raya .Ikah & me ;resting on the new sofa Amirin`s dad bought :))Best sia ,mcm balloon !AH hA HAh aHA~

k bye people.

ps ;i think im buying a new Hp .Soul samsung :))

2008-09-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

k im offically sad .I dont have a pair of raya heels :(:(:(:(:( 5 sad faces.
hais ~Dad didnt give me my allowance this week so I havta sacrifies my concession money .hmmm ,what a jerk !stingyyyyyy ass .argh ~Its hari
raya & he only bought me my 1stday raya kebaya .No new accesories ,no new heels ,no new bag ,no pocket money .Tak fair sehh Aba !na balek mlm pun sebab skola kn !k Maybe Im asking for too much of new things but u could at least ask me about my raya heels :(I gave hints but u totally ignored so ur actually not willing to fork out abit more money for a pathetic pair of heels .& poor mummy ,she wont be wearing new clothes or heels this raya .Nothing is of her interest :)
I wish i wish under the stars to have a happy family........a happy family......a happy family ....amin.

This is a skinny kitty with a furryball kitty .he he ~I found her under my block .She likes to selit selit eg .betw legs .Fie & me were waiting for the rain to stop so we can like go to sch & she accompanied us .My eyeliner look so thick!
This was during Amirin s birthday .HA ha h a ~I was feeling very 'gian' with guitars .I took his one & wanted to take a picture with it badlyy. k ppl ,I dont have fat legss ,its just squeezed .Between u & me ,I was being like step happy gile when amirin took this picture. Yes !I forget to tell something .Im so proud of myself .I helped Amirin

with his canvas & Im proud of him because he did complete all his 8 boards 95% byhimself !YAYY to youuuu :DDDD .Im happy with the canvas & when we were sending it to his sch ,his t`cher praised him & I terase ;p Its a cool

piece I must say~Especially the butt ,sexxaay .Well ,teh picture above s nt so clear cus it was a rushed one ,it looks waaay better in life .Anyway ,Im proud of u.

After the whole chaos with his arts & everything ,we breakfast
Sup Tulang .I wanted the 8 pieces !*tamak* well ,his paying for it anyway.
he ordered nasi ayam .Gosh ~Ayam die crispy !I wash my hands & sawwww
hakim !Haha aha.sore eye-ing. and ....I foreverr LOOOOOOVE sup tulangssSs & mee kuah!~//

And with this picture ,I end the post saying ''GoodNight sleepyheads"\

p s ;HAPPY 17th 17th AQYLS !!!!!!!!!!my semangkes ,i love u !~//
sorry i dont have ur picture in my new lappy :(so sad.

2008-09-25T18:32:00.001-07:00

Good morning everyone :)!
Rise & Shine.
Im in class but its History class.
very very boringggggggggggggggggggg~ So i bought my baby ,ms lappy .hehe ~K I didn`t tag along when gundus went berbuka puase .I
think I fell asleep ?AHaiyo .Sorry guys .Guess what ,my blog is
like ,pg 13 ?HA HA HA .Amirin was like laughing =,=
"blog gegerl .Primary 6 pun leh bace"
HA HAH HA .so what dog ?k la ,its funny.

Life s pretty calm now .Everything`s going back to normal.
Amirin & me ,we had this really huge fight few days back.
It wasnt a good one & I dont wanna talk about it .Anyway ,I think I might be having a problem with my backbones .It keeps cracking so easily I feel very fragile & old .Im not hunchback ,though .Shud I visit the doctor?
I get tired easily when Im sitting straight .Or maybe am I becoming
a hunchback ?No way.

Im worried .I still dont have heels for Hari Raya .Im close to broke .yeah ,semi-broke ?ha ha .Oo yes ah !hari raya s on the 1st Oct & then my pay will be on the 7th :))double the moneyy !he he .Im excited about the money & the fact that I will like have the chance to put abit more makeup then usual .I want to look beautiful too ,like any other girls.
& then there s the money .which is obviously equals to SHOPPING!
YEAYY !~I really need to shop ,but I havta control myself from slashing my
atm too often .Ha ha ~Imma big spender .very very big spender .You guys wouldnt wana know .I already put on hold this rock-on dress which cost me $65 ?& a $23 teeshert .Deposits ...hah aha ~//Yeah .& then I need shoes ,teeshirts ,jeans ,hairbands ,ha ha h a .krit
krit krit .MY advise to ppl who likes to survey on stuffs before they buy.
"If you like it ,you have the cash ,just grab it".
because if u say "i ll think about it" ..u ll keep surveying & by then ,ur money s already gone ...ha ha h a~sad life kn gitu :))

arghh !~I need that fcuking puma shoe!!!!!!!!

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2008-09-23T00:52:00.000-07:00

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HAHaHAHAHAHAHA.
Im loving these thinggsssss

2008-09-23T00:42:00.001-07:00

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Guys hold your breath...

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he he .I told you im sexy :D
he he hEHEHE!~
ah yer la ..gi clickk ..try korg punye.
KPO!

2008-09-22T21:36:00.000-07:00

hello.
Im at mac.
with my lappy.
& then there`s the smell of.
mac spicy.
menggoda/goda.
sangat.

I got my hari raya clothes already.
2 pieces .its almost the same colour sehh!
HUHU.
one is tailored ,another bought.
both is kebaya ,one is sexier .ha ha~
Actually ,i wanted a baju kurung for the
tailored one since the material itself
is soo nice but my aunt insisted on making
a kebaya because she said tt i am tall & thin so
kebaya kinda fits me better .BOOHOO~!!I shudnt
have listened to her !HA ha haHAh WaaATaTAttATaEve.
& and n Im noTTttotott THin oke.
At least not lika STICCk ,or a broOm ,or a grasshoPer.
grasshopper? *krit krit*
i am tall w long legs & medium sized body.
grasshopper have long legs long body long hands long nose
long ears long wings .*big KRITTTKRITT*
HA ha .& i haven buy my raya shoe :(
I don`t have any .I already chucked my 07`s 06`s heels.
Im thinking of buying a white strappy heels.
sexy mama :))
or maybe boots ?HA Hah Aha.....baek//

OMG ,another table of 6 .ALL eating macspicy meals.
they`re chewing on their friesssssssssssssss.
TEMptationnNNns .*droooooooooool bnyk2*

back to raya ,I think this year
i ve only break fast at home like 2twice a week?
sad :((
& my family`s wearing pink.
rashid choose one =,=
krit krit kn pink !But mines not..
its between ..................and ............
he he e h eheh ehe ;p
you know I know kn.

mum:na kau this yr nk design mcm mane?
nana:na nk cam shining shining :D
mum:ooo ,manik manik..
a.rashidd came...
mum:bang ...anak u nk baju yg tu *pointing* ..die this
year nk kilat kilat la kan..

k that is very tak perlu .But just entertaining kn.
HAHAHA .
somewhere I don`t noe.
& im buying for my bruthe samping .hehe/
$15 .ANIZ !barang baek punye!
kn faris!

BAek ..lagu micheal jackson=,=
he he h e~~/////////
my body`s aching ..I tihnk i need tukang urut!
yg handsome punye .GAatals~` eh ok ape!

hmmm .there`s this fat woman beside me.
I think she`s watching something on her lappy.
muslim.
eating macspicy.
gedebak .frm just nw eat haven finish.

k la ,im gona watch prisonbreak III :))
be jealous.
be very jealous.

2008-09-21T09:33:00.000-07:00

This is me ,this is real
When im feeling sleepy when im still healty .see im a lil chubby on the cheeks ,now mcm skeleton.

feeling feeling sexy :)hehe.

my second post ,& im eating bee hoon tom yam.

i wonder haw my mum can cook such delicious dishes

2008-09-21T08:50:00.000-07:00

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I find it very very,
very very me.
hehh ~

I miss making ketupats with my grandfather.
or my dad.
I quarelled with my dad.
Anyway ,I think my mum`s right.
during breakfast ,she said "Na ,muke kau cengkong skrg ..tak berisi mcm
dulu"
& I think she`s very right.
:(
Im sad .I used to be very vibrant & prettily happy:)
physically & mentally.
Now my face sucks .Its so dull I feel so ugly.
Im gettin thinner by the face ,unhealthy by the body.
few months back ,I was a healthy happy chap.
I told u im restless.
I told u i ve been thinking alot.
I told u this is not me ,not me.
I wish I wish with all my heart that annana will be back
as soon as possibly.

Tmr ,my 2weeks of break ends.
Sch as usual.
HEctic hectic I hate.

anyway ,yest was all about me.
I guess a few knew what happened.
Including min ?yeah.
Sorry for that.
& I want to say thank you fish .You`ve alway been the one
listening & understanding.
You knew even before I tell.
Like yest :)I love you.I love you very much~

u re the voice i hear inside my head,
the reason that im singing
I need to find u
i gotta find u/
& ure the missing piece i need
the song inside of me
i need to find u
i gotta find u
me ..next to u
u next to me.
I need to find u
I gottta find u
`~27th times ?:)

Im very very disturbed.
I wish everything will be fine.
Tmr`s a better day..

2008-09-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

Kak Nisa & me

I just miss having fun & wasting time with myself.

when I feel so bored & all I did was strumming the same old

songs with my guitar ,on my bed ,facing the ceiling.

I miss spending time at home.

Im not saying im not enjoying me & you ,its been so great.

Its just..I dont know.

Maybe im just too tiredddddddddddd//

its getting into me~

2008-09-17T08:12:00.000-07:00

hi ./im supposted to be sleeping but im doing some unnessasary
things & hmwrk .hais ~Im thinking too much.
too much thinking im .blabliblowww.
Im a very cranky cranky girl.
Blame it on my unconsistent sleeping time.
Sleeping also must have schedule !Haiyo.
I brought back amirin`s canvas ,so I could paint & make
do ...which made me sleep only at 7 yest :(embek.
& then I wake up at 11.30 .& fetched amirin from sch with
bicycle .& then I did something Stupid.
I breakfast at home.

My monday was spend with THEM !(2nd pictures)
aziemaifishyasfarisafiqacaphykel.
We played fireworks at our usual secret
place & yeahh ~I HAD FUNNNNNNNNNNNN!!
best giler & I love every single one of them:))
see you guys soon again pluss the rest!

..
...
....
Why am I yawning every 2mins :(
I so tired I guess .I feel like staying at home
for one whole week with just my guitar & pillow
& quilt & food & a maid to massage me.
he he he ~*k jap nk kentot*
hmmmm .Im soooooooo lazy to go to sch & work
tmr .YOu see ,im having a 2 week break
but Im still having sch :(
uhukk .saddddddddddddddddddd.
KRIT KRITTT KRIT~
fcuk ~my glue ...:(:(:(finish alreadyyy:((

You remember the look in my eyes
when U told me that this was goodbye
I was begging u not tonight
not here ,not now.

I just called Fie.
yessa ,he ll be fetching me tmr.
more time to sleep!

I think im gona watch prisonbreak 4.
got it in my thumbdrive:))
& then fell asleep while watchingg.
& then dream of me ..as Sara..
ha ha ha ~YAHU.

Anyway ,Im thinking of changing my
shampoo .I don`t think Dove`s good
enuf for my hair.
but i love the body nightbath~!
BEST !put me to sleep at ease:))
cheyy ,tinguk ar aku ,ni pun nk bilangg.

I miss being so lazy & free.

Min aku rindu kau ckap minyak wangi aku
bau sedap.

2008-09-14T09:30:00.000-07:00

Lastly ,my dearly beloved ,amirinamirinn.
Im sorry .im sorry for all the confusion I ve made .Things like that happen sometimes ,when suddenly everything comes back .Im sorry baby.
Im sorry for making you so scared .so anxious .Thank you again ,for giving me that day off from everything ,even from you .Thank you baby .
I need space for myself too & thank you for trying so hard ,for trying your very best to give the ultimate best for me .I love you for that .For you re the only one who knows how to handle me thru my toughest attitude .I love you everyday even if I said I don`t .k tt`s contradicting .but rest assured ,I ll alway love my amirin .Baby I hope I made you a very happy boy on your bithday .A year older ,A year wiser :))I hope that 2 days I spend with you made ur birthday a memorable one .I wish you the very best for your o`s ok ?Don`t worry ,I ll alway be by your side ,.ok ?Im your only piggy .The only halal piggy that you love to hug !YAY !

Its been a year with you & i ve never regret it .My life is so colourful .Much much colourful than rainbows .The magical spark between you & me will never fadeaway .Hehe ,I love it wen u come to my room in the middle of the night just to watch me sleep & giving me gentle kisses which I don`t even realized .When u would just stare across from your window hoping to see me when u know its impossible & then I would smile so widely cus I ll be washing the dishes & I could see ur little sillhoute from my kitchen window .Hehe ~aip .I love it wen I fell asleep on your shoulder in bus rides .I love love it when u pull back my fringe & then kiss my forehead goodbye .Our bicycle ride homeee ~& especially ur little invincible eyes.
when you messed my hair & stroke my chin & say "my furryball kitty" ..
or when u asked me to behave when Im naughtyyy ,..i feel like a princess:)) a princess well-treated.

Remember my last last post ?When I said that I was confused about everything .I still am ,a little .Anyway ,for the next day ,I ignored
amirin s msges .not ignored ,just not replying .msges he send to make me feel better .giving me the space
I told him I needed .I was taking a day off ,to spend my day with myself:)
At night ,i finally called him .He was as calm as ever ,dont wanna make me annoyed .I was having a flu then .we Just talk .He told me he had to go down to buy Ikah`s milk .& then he told me ,he went back bcause he was short of cash .& 15mins later ,he said.
"u ,bukak pintu skrgg u.."
I was almost mad because i thought he wanted to meet me ..I wasn`t in the mood for that cus I just wanted to rest.
I open the door ..but there was no amirin.
there were little things on the ground.
I wanted to cry ,but I held on.
There`s a pair of my favourite contact lenses & 2 little panadols.
I was so close to crying I went silence for a moment.
& then I stared talking again ,on the phone.
He told me he rushed up the stairs after placing the stuffs there.
scared that anyone would see him.
he told me he went to the shop but was short of $2 ,so he went back to take some cash then went down again & bought it.
:(that was waay beyond caring.
I shed a feww tears.

U wanted to make me feel better so baddly ,U did stuffs that
I could ve nver imagined .U remembered when I begged for new
contact lenses like a baby as i ve lost mine ..& U bought it ~althou U
knew U ll be short of cash :(Baby thats so sweet of u .You know ur the
sweetest thing alive & u re goddamn still the sweetest thing alive & i ll treasure u as much as I treasure my own life .Thank you baby.
Thank you for making me smile & saying I Love You Preetyhead everyday:))
muahs!~Happy birthday baby.

Lots of Love,
bubu

2008-09-14T02:16:00.000-07:00

Hello.

Friday was my favourite boy`s Birthday :))

Its also my friend ,Zul birthday.

& its also my nuttsykuku friend, Afann`s birthday.

so 3 in 1.this is when I have to do a self-potrait.

its popping out actually ,like 3D.
& it was a last minute change ,so its kinda ugly:(
I wish I could do better.

what`s up eh.

Im having two weeks of break from sch.

but its still buzy for me .Lots of plans.

Lots of events .Some hmwrk .Two art exhibitions.

yet ,I have so little time.

Amirin s art canvas is due on tues ;why bother?

because im helping him.

hmmm ;lets see .homework .I have a journal to complete for investigating art class .Its not the normal journal .Not that .I havta do reviews on exhibitons like the EOB painting of the year ,& SAM ,the lesson where we did 2 portraits in an hour ,self-potrait ,biannale exhb ,hmm what else?

Ohh my !I have another exhb to go for my art scene :(!dammit .That lesson is so so BORING especiall with the racist t`cher .& then ,I have a presentation due this wed ..or thurs ?

includin powerpoint .written report .speech .hais ~~~~& not forgetting !my 1oo drawings (sketchbook) .ha ha ha ~school`s crr-aa-zyy babeh !AT LEAST its something I like doing & I won`t complain.

Anyway ,I already plan .That im gonna take sculpture

& metalmaking .Or maybe photography ?or 3D?

& dance for my art scene ?hehe. for the next sem.

MCM PAHAM DA PLAN .BADOT~

This picture was when I was waiting for Fie @ sch lounge.

I was alone & there s nothing better to do then sleeping.

ha ha haa ,tak perlu sehh caption =,=

hoho !So what happen.

Few days back ,on wed ,I breakfast with classmate.

almost all were there .Lau Pa Sat.

ha ha ha ~Afann was so proud of his new haircut

WHICH I don`t really care =,=

I laughed alot .HA ha ~we took some pictures but then I don`t know where s the pictures .huhuu.

we went back ard 9plus ?yeahk:))

YEAHKS!

& so ....This is my new hair ,amirin did it .haHa~

& I have purple & blonde streaks :))

but ..SADLY !!the purple s turning red :((

I don`t like red streaks .I want purple!

& then ..a day after the haircut ,I cut my fringe as well .HAHA~

itchy itchy tangan .Its abit short but oh well!

& this is my little rider friend ,Fie! we re in Class.

before fasting .Lollipop in mouth.

YEAHH !& this is 2 days before AVRIL`s CONCERT!

yeahk !Be jealous everyone !I went to AVRIL`s best damn tour!

heh e he .It costed me $105 & its worth every penny:))

I was & am the happiest girl on EARTH!

everyone knows haw much I looooooove avril

so ...yeah !She s very preeetayy !& cute like hell.

she played the drums ,the guitar ,the piano & she dance.

K i dont like the part when she dance .As in she`s

not supposted to DANCE !she`s a rockchicck.

but I still enjoyed it .I didn`t fast on that very day too:p

..yay !I went to her 1st concert in s`pore & this concert is waaaaay

better !~

So you ve heard.

he`s the one who accompanied at Avril`s concert:))

Thank you hunny.

& last friday ,was his birthday .We went breakfast`ing with his bestfriend
Andy andyyy & gf .yeahks ~at paya lebar .We ate SUSHI SETS !yahu & they ate makanan mama .ha ha .3 butches & a lessy & a girl came .THat lessy is
sooooooo cute sia !too bad she gave up on boys :(ni la laki ,tak appreciate.
I bet adil know whose that girl.....hehe.//

After breakingfast with andy & gf ,we went to bazaar ,bought spicy dengdeng ///chilled ..ard 10 ,we headed to birthday boy`s house !YAY!
& TAAdaAaAAa !That`s one of the pictures .he he ~his birthday cake.
Birthdayboy & his family & me :))
such love shared:))

& this was yest !SATURDAYY .his family & I ,we dined in at Sakura ,
orchard .before that ,I went to his house to paint his canvas .HA ha~
It was a fruitful 5hrs of painting ?yeahkk !~mami & aba came back ,we got
ready & off to orchard .AFter orchard was geylang ,just stop by to change birthdayboy & aba`s baju raya .Home. waiiittt !can u see all my sushisss!!
since its buffet ,i took as much as I can !the foodspreads` AWESOMEEE!ARGHH !I Like ..my last dish i ate there was fish soup .very refreshing !im gona go there again .& again & again .I shall treat my family there .yeahk!then again ,not all of my family members eat japanese food ..hmm~

syikin cook .zul beberd .ayu ra.
this was on 22nd Augusssst.
heHE .breaksssss. my class minus Fie

Lastly ..K ,this post is kinda boring.
just recaps of some events happenning.
I don`t like to blog this wayy .but naemind .Thank you
for taking 10mins of your time reading & looking.
HAHA.

happy 17th Birthday Ayu !they say we`re like twins.
This friggin` child .Name: Afann Bin blablabla .As loud as ever ,happy
birthdayy biRTHDAyy !

& another birthday boy ...ZUl bin blablibloww...HA ha ~happy happy birthday yoha!
& lastly ...an advance one ..HA HA ~HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZUHLIK BIN INSECTISIDE ALIEN !ha ha ha .4 years & i love u ~u have new girlfriend
right .ala ,boringg ,birthday no celebration :(go la ..go enjoy tak jemput nana .after all those years ....krit kritt ..da la ..nk spray baygon ar.

ayu`s birthday cake:))

well ,this birthday cake is for all the birthdayboys/girls.

-amirinafannzulayuzuhri

FINALLY ;the one that I miss sooooooo much !I ve been wanting to update & say "i miss my gundus "but time is killin me .Anyway ,I MISS MY GUNDUS .very very very .boohoo !~but then again ,I ll be meeting them TMR !YAHUUU ~....i miss all of u .I miss iffah`s curly hair :(.i miss asking farna teletubies for guitar chords & haw come when I play it ,it didnt sound right :(,I miss noriz `s voice :(I miss ira & shuuy `s very very blurrness :(,i miss suzi ,the way she laughs ,hehe ,I miss my little ira lalala :(~...i miss mai bullying me & her gunung ledang faces :(...I miss azie`s stoned face :(.I miss ashidahh`s minahreps-ness :(.aha haha ~& then there`s farrischapiq !& acappss & afiqq & adibb ..& azam & evryone else /I miss them :((,all of them .we had so much fun .I miss you .all .all .all .very .very .much ~!fish je ,aku jumpe @ work:)

k he he .Goodnight!~

2008-09-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

i just want to sing a birthday song for you..
Its not supposted to happen like this..
Its not right.
its not right..
its unhealthy.
it sucks out a whole lot of energy from me.
its making me duller than ever.

why can`t it be like a year ago..
when we had caramel frappucino
& i taught u how to dip the oreocheesecake
in the drink.

why can`t it be like a year ago..
when we shopped & u kissed me all
over.

when smallpigglet was still alive evryday.
& ana ..and mirin ..

amirin sayang ..i need that very very lovable
hugg :(
im tired but at least let me sing a birthday song.
I ll try to make the best of it for your birthday today.
I love you & i i love you & i still will love you.
he he .smile sexayyy:))
u turned 17teen already ,at last *shakes head*

anyway ,thank you baby for the little
surprise .IT was the sweetest thing :))
im loving it!

2008-09-10T09:11:00.000-07:00

hello .Im like finally back ~~!!ha h ah a.
Im gona update like there`s no tmr .he he~
anywae ,I was the happiest girl on Earth on the 7th Sept.
BECAUSE I friggin` went to Avril Lavigne`s concert.
he he he h .I likeee~

She is like friggin` preeeeeeettttty & her voice.
wahhh ,amazingg zing zongg.

many things happened everyday,
but there`s just no way I could type it all out.
ha ha h a ~My life`s buzy.
very very filled .HEhe.

anywae ,friends are getting waaaay wayyy cr-az-i--er.
& i really really miss my gundus so much:(
It`s been so long since we went out.
& i miss adek & kitty too ~KITTY especially.
they are cats f.y.i =,=

so, what now...
its already fasting month.
Geylang is equal to DENGDENGsss.`
i just chopped off my hair ,i don`t know.
I have no comment abt it ,it looks the same ,feels
the same.
I think i need to buy hairfall shampoo.
haish ~& im close to broke :(sadlife.

oo !oo!
Amirin s birthday is this coming friday.
its exciting ,but mirin ,im really bad at birthday
presents :(So I hope you like my present.
happy birthday to Afann & Zul too:))

right now ,Im a very confused girl.
I keep having "what if...s"
what if this what if that..
im confused about everything ard me.
Baybeats 08` reminds me of some yrs back.
i don`t know .I`ve been thinking alot. & ALOT.
my brain is functioning so slowly ,you shud ask
amirin & fie.
Things have been very complicated or is it just me.
I can`t wait to get hold of a moto license ,.So I could
just fly & feel the windd. ....
....
I knew it.
I knew this would happen.
This part of me will come backk.
its only a matter of time:(

I hate this .I hate this.
I hate this .I guess only fish will know.
Only fish could understand.

My body is wayyyy below healthy.
my energy s being sucked out fast ,im close
to shutting down.
believe me ,i ve been like that before.

Right now ,Im very very close to my breaking
point.
I just ,hmmm ..have no positive ions left.
I need me ,I need to find annana.
I need to be a healthy piggy.

will it ever die?
can I escape from it?
01.

i feel very very small .scared.
alone .unhealthy .tired .small.
timid .trapped .fragile.

2008-08-31T11:35:00.000-07:00

i miss you blog.
i hope i ll update soon.
& ziella ,diam bodo .ha ha~//

2008-08-18T08:37:00.001-07:00

i am a very worned out kid :'(
I have sch frm 9-9pm almost evryday :(
i have work after sch :(
& tons of hmwrk :'(
I ve only work once in 2 weeks &
I feel very very guilty :'(
but i dont think they ll buy my reasons :'(

i am very very very exhausted.
i reach home ard 10 plus if i end sch at 9pm.
& then I have to think abt my hmwrk :'(
boohoo ~//no rest time for me :'(
I wish I was still in sec sch ...still as carefree as ever.

k ...i havta do my powerpoint presentation........

I will look like a tengkorak(skeleton) by the end
of 2008.

talking abt 2008 ..gosh~Its going to end soon.
& hello to 2009 .I hope time wont tick any faster.

2008-08-12T09:45:00.000-07:00

hmmm .my comp is sick of my pictures.

ha h ah a ~thats why die buat hal .so I managed to

squeezie squeezie in 2 pictures today.

& since today is a nice day...

everything is abt me!

woOohOoo.

Why Its A Nice Day:

-my hair ,well ..it goes something like "aku suke rambut aku niari.."

-my eyeliner s perfect!

-i look nice today :))

-the weather is soooooooo ..i likeeeeeeee...

-night class was fun & cheery.

-printmaking was best~

-i had uncountable laughters.

-today is definitely a very very nice day!

-& amirin fetched me from sch sumore!

hehhs ~Thank you Allah ,for making today s weather cooling.

& my day a great one!

I feel like singing.

ohh i still haven done my powerpoint project due tmr.

he he ,but somehow ,Im not worried.

althou i say im gona do a good one.

HA HA HA.

what a dumbass.

kayy .shud i sleep ?or do my powerpoint?

I have no idea.

or upload pictures.

ha ha ~I am so cheeky today.

how i wish today never ends .everything

is sooooo perfect.

2008-08-09T07:49:00.000-07:00

happy national day.
happy birthday fish!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he he he.
i love you fish & i hope u like
what i did for your birthday :))

she was working till midnight ,closing tt is.
I came ard at 11 ,he he ,by the back door.
she was arranging the newspapers & khus already
saw me .& then I hugged her from behind!
YEAYY!!! he he heh e., we hugg for 10seconds.

fish :na kau tak wish aku happy birthday...
me :buat ape ..aku dtg utk remind kau je yg jap lagi birthday kau..

ha ha ha .cute right ~& then at 12 midnight ,she was
doing buzzing .& i shouted "fishhhhhhhh HAPPY BIRTYHDAYY!"
& we hugg for 10secs again:))

so i was the first to wish .YAYYY!
i told her "aku takde hp ..so aku jumpe kau la ..so can wish at 12!personally lagi..."
he h ehe/.

& she got whip cream all over !HA HA.
its funny ."na ,,,aku takut sehh ,,kene sabohh nnt .."
HA HA HA HA .kwuang kwuang kwuang!
& she s officially the first person to get sabo(birthday)in
starbucks bigsplash !~& congrats on the 100% snapshot!

k aku shoik sendiri.
today i went to jb with my family
& im soooo veryyyyyy happy that we `ve finally talk !(mummy & i)
he he he .we bought stuffs & i got sick
halfway .boohoo~
after tt we went to catch the fireworks!
LAWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HAhaha.
then went home.

Sorry guys .I ve been very buzy with sch .im too lazy
to go to museums n such .I have some incomplete 3D models
to do ,,some reviews ..a drawingg of 6 objects & so much
more .Hais ,& i ve been meeting baby lesser n lesser now:(
& i haven been spending time with my friends.
everyday is like sch & blablalbla & artfriend.
i ve not seen amirin for 3 days & im missing him badly.

sch make me walk alot ,perspire alot ,spend alot &
its wearing me out ~I didnt come to work this whole
week & i feel very guilty .I haven even put my work
schedule cus im not so sure what xtra class i have next week.

& that reminds me of PRINTMAKINGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
arghhhhhhhh fcuk!
i have to complete 10 plus 3 pieces of it & printmaking is
really very tiring .i hate it!

hais ~thinking abt it ....i feel like quiting my work.
but i will definitely miss my little bigsplash family.

fcuk .bye i wont be updating.

2008-08-05T09:51:00.000-07:00

hello .ha ha ~2nd post.

kayy the first pikca is me now !!he he .i dyed my hair soft black

cus im tired of coloured hair .My 2nd pikca is the time when I

went to Nanyang poly for the last time maybe?

Ha ha .So ,haw?

& I paired my new hair with a pair of green contacts.

he h ehe:))mentel ,I know.

actually ,I have this streak of blonde somewhere & i wanted to

dye it purple .but the hair dresser is a faggot & he was like

irritating ,so I say just dye it all soft black.

bodo sia hairdresser!

& my hair definitely increase in volume :(

rambut ramai sehh & mcm bee hive.

takpe ,nice woOOooKayyY~!

k byebye.

anyws ,i went to gym again=))

& next ,we will go swim instead of gym.

huhu~healthy living ppl.

2008-08-05T07:19:00.000-07:00

embek embek .can anybody buy me avril lavigne s ticket?

BOO HOO .big boo~

i want to go .If only it was like last time.

When avril first came to s`pore ,it was during april ,the

month of my birthday so

my aunt/dad bought me the ticket to the concert!

as a present.

but now ,its waaaaaay past my birthday.

huk huk!

I WANT I WANT.

i will try to get it myself!

i dont care.

see you soon avril ,i hope we wear the same

shoes again :D

Ikah looks hot & sweaty .akak also.~

he he he .is tt abg man ?ha ha .kayy ikah ,i like ur top.

kayy bye ~sch s sch .ha ha ha~nothing

to talk about .TATA TITI TUTU.

2008-08-02T06:27:00.000-07:00

see la .they didnt even jemput me to eat the food from pasar mlm.
hais
`what`s happening to my family .what s with mum?
home doesnt feel like home .im so ...sad.
& hungry.

on the other hand ,Im so glad to have another family to care for me:)
yest was super tiringg & fun as well.
there was no class .actually there is ,ha ha ~at 6pm till 9.
but i decided to skip it.
because of my cramp ;I feel so weak.
first day hor~ so i called amirin ,feeling lost & weak.
he told me to meet him outside his sch.
so yeah ,I fetched him from sch & surprised him with
a chicken wing .he he ~dektu perut monster.
went back to his house .we wanted to rest ,but then aba
says "nak ikut amek mami".
yeah so we follow !fetched mami (car)at tanah merah
& then we wanted to go to watson warehouse @ Expo.
but it was super packed .aba mengamok .HA ha ha.
& we went to bedok corner to eat.
I had carrotcake which sucks but taste abit nice.
we ate .slowly ..talkk ...abt amirin s studies ..
*baby ,mami & aba is so generous & kind to offer tt
amt to you.
I hope you make them proud & put a smile across
their cute faces*
he he he .It was a long dinner.
After dinner ,aba drove us to donnoe where.
I felt so cosy when amirin sat so close beside me in
the car & place his hand over my shoulder.
with the bantal .ha h ah a ~& the classic song :):)
parked somewhere near east coast & the four of us sat
on a ceramic bench ,so near to the sea & sand ,under
a tree .It was an awesome feeling .The wind was so
nice to us .blew me & mami s hair :D kite empat goyang
goyang kaki .he h eh ~& amirin was like keep pushing my
head to lean on his shoulder .was a very very nice time.
I wish there was a picture to capture that moment.
talk ..talk ..talk ..& at some point of time ,I feel like
crying ..wondering why arent my family as close as this.
why my parents arent as gentle as them .Im supposted to
have a really close bond with my family ,as close as I am
to amirin s family ,as comfortable as I am to amirin s family.
I wish to tell my parents what s really goin on with my life.
tt i went out with his family ,tt he s a good guy ,tt im having
a great time with them & not messing my life away.
But I knew its nver a good move .for there ll be jealousy dislikes
& lots of questioning .the ones whose suppost to ask me
haw s my sch today
werent my parents but his .Its so ..different.
I ve never kissed my mum since a long time ago
but I kissed his mum everytime we met .both of her cheeks.

I hope things will heal up bet me & my family real soon.
i know my parents want the best for me
but if they cant love me for what i ve become then its
really hard .I was bad but Im better now.
they cant erased what i was before .its very very hard.
ahh ,I dont know .At least there are still some people
who will alway make me smile & feel loved.
I love all of you who love me.
who cared abt me :D\\
EVERY little humans whom have at least make me
smile for 2sec ,I owe them lots of freee drinks.
he he he.

kayy I was carried away .so where was i?
yeak ,the beach thingy.
we sat there until aba gets sleepy cus of the wind.
went back to the car & he drove us to eastcoast mac.
we had supper there & I had vanilla milkshake.
talk again ,this time the major topic -CARS.
ha ha ~every cars tt drive thru ,we comment.
ha ha ha .& i have a thing abt dusty cars ,eeew.
after mac was home sweet home.
They send me home ,amirin send me till my lift.
I Love them so much more than I love my beautiful butt.
HUHUHU,
lets dance!!~

Anyway ,today was a boring day.
I did something to my hair .HA HA HA~
surprise surprise babeh.

byebye ,.I am super hungreyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

2008-07-31T10:28:00.000-07:00

i miss ma mummy.....:(

2008-07-30T07:59:00.000-07:00

GYM s day!

2008-07-29T09:41:00.000-07:00

i will never forget that.............